it's weird hearing my mom talk about me. she had called her dad to tell him happy birthday, cuz today is his birthday. but she ended up talkin to someone else or something. and was talkin bout somethin that was wrong with me. and she was talkin bout medicine i gotta take for it and shit. and she's sayin that she can tell it's makin a big difference and shit. i think she's mainly taklin bout me bein happier and shit. cuz she really thinks i am. she thinks i don't cut anymore. she thinks i take my medicine. when really, none of thats true. but eh i guess theres not really anything i can do. cuz i'm not gonna tell her the truth. today was really boring. i didn't get my cigs like i thought i would. turns out the guy that gets them got caught or some shit by his dad. damn him. so i went round talkin to all the seniors i kne tryin to see if they could. i found one that i kne, she said she was gonna try to get some for me. i really hope she will. cuz i really want some. i haven't had them in a while. and lately i just have been needing them. been talkin to justin alot more lately. that's pretty cool. glad he's happy. he has been alot the past 3 days i've talked to him. i think it's 3 that he's been happy. ever since he started goin out with this emily chick apparently. i'm glad she can make him happy. he deserves it. i hope she doesn't end up hurting him like all the others. tonite i have karate, a few of the people get to get their belts today. that'll be fun. hopefully we won't do much. i'm not really in the mood. but i don't think it would be too bad if we did i guess. then after that i'm going to have to go to drivers ed. i got a driving time. it's gonna be at 8:30 - 10:30, and tonite i'm supposed to drive on the highway. that'll probably be scary. meh i've been writing a story, but i haven't really been able to write much in it cuz of skool. so i'm hopin tom when i get home i'll be able to write some more. cuz when i write a lil in it, i get about a chapter or 2 or 3 kinda. so hopefully i can get more tom. well i gotta go do hw now. fun fun. later.