grrrr alrite so much damn shit has been pissin me off..... but i'm not sure... i really can't write much rite now, cuz i'm only on since my mom isn't home... but once she is.. i'm gonna have to work on my damn hw... and i still have other hw i have to do... god this is why i always feel like a failure and this is why i wrote FAILURE on my fuckin arm. people keep saying i'm not one, but they're just saying that to try to make me feel better, when it doesn't even fuckin help. i wish people would just shut the fuck up and try to leave me alone... or at least to stop trying to make me feel better, cuz it doesn't. and then i'm always left outa shit that all my friends do, they do all this shit to try to be kids and crap, but then i'm never invited. the only person that even talks bout me with others or writes bout me in her xanga, is my best friend hayley... everybody else, specially my friend amanda, says she's my best friend, but she definately isn't... but whatever, fuck it. would it be better to be a hoe... or to just be left aside and be nothing to somebody who means so much to you...? if anybody has any help with that question.... please help me....