why are they doing this to me? why are they talking about him? why are they bringing him back up? why are they making me think of the past? of all the times i spent with him. of all the times i got online, just to talk to him. of all the times i stayed up late for him. of all the times i thought about him. of all the times i cried over him... why???? i had been doing good. i wasn't thinking about him as much. i was able to actually be happy. but they brought him back up. why did they have to bring him back up??!! and now i can't even get him out of my mind....