It's unfair because Mrs. Ballek chose Kelly to be in this one thingy where you have to get on stage and everything, and I really wanted to be in it. It's unfair. I also wanted to paint the school banner, but noooooo, only the people who have no enthusiasm for it get picked. Waaaaaaaa. She made me feel really badly as soon as she said that. She didn't mean too, but now I feel insignificant. Why can't it workout my way for once. Waaaaaaaa. She said it's because Kelly seemed to be more standing out in class than I am in her class. That really makes me feel bad. It really does. I try my best to standout and make people happy as much as possible and what do I get for it? Nothing. Nothing at all. She didn't want we to be upset about it either. But I felt like my life was a waste when she picked Kelly. And I'm not blaming Kelly, I love Kelly, she's my bestest friend. I know it's sounds really stupid but this is how my messed up head works. I felt like a part of me had died for the rest of the day. And it still hurts. ): And everyone is always telling me you can do it next time, but have I ? No. Will I? Probably not. By the way this happened today and for all of every class after Lunch (when she told Kelly) I felt very unloved. You might as well have stabbed a knife in my heart and told me you hated me. It would have hurt less. Boy am I a messsed up person.