its the way you let me down
Listening to: Distance - Faktion
Feeling: alive
It’s not the way you see me
It’s the way you let me down
I can’t believe that it hurts this much
When I hear your voice
You’re calling out to me
Though you know I can’t be with you

Chorus:
So please don’t leave
Just remember to keep some distance
And remember you’ve already had your chance with me
I hope you see
I could never be without you
Just try to see the way that I see

It’s not the way you need me
It’s the way you drag me down
I can’t believe that it hurts this much
I still hear your voice
You’re calling out to me
Though you know I can’t be with you

Repeat Chorus


You’re a constant echo
That I hear ringing in my ears
I see you
I see the way you see me
You’re a constant hurting
That gets the best of me
I see you - I see the way you see me



remind you of anything? damn straight it does...
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and every little thing she does it magic
Listening to: NCIS theme song
Feeling: angry
jealous, fake people are really pissing me off. get over yourself. seriously. why the fuck must you ruin the only good thing i have in my life? why do you feel the need to come between me and one of the greatest things i have. just because you can't have it doesn't mean that others shouldn't. fuck you! you blow everything out of proportion. absolutely everything! you hear something and automatically assume that that means its true. check your stories, go straight to the source, stop being such a fucking bitch about stuff!
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and i won't say i told you so
Listening to: Told You So - Keith Urban
Feeling: aggravated
i love him. god help me if it ruins us both. god help me

i'll update later
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walking through an empty house
Listening to: Knowing Me, Knowing You - ABBA
Feeling: alright
sometimes loving someone can be very bad for your health.




and this song couldn't be more appropiate for this
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and the walls come tumbling down
Feeling: alone
doubt
by : me :-)

we tore each other apart,
ripped at the seems of our already fragile hearts.
we screamed and we yelled,
we were both so scared of what we really felt.
everything's broken, everythings dead,
and you think i'm so easy to be read.
the sparks are gone, the love is no more,
and i swear i won't cry when you walk out that door.
i gave you my heart, i gave you my soul,
and you sit there and say it was all so poor.
we turned each other inside out,
how can there still be any doubt?
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shout out loud
Listening to: We Might Fall - Ryan Starr
Feeling: alone
today was the worst day of my life. minus getting to see mrs. beihl. that was the best thing to happen to me since Febraury :-)




work with staceyface was pretty nice. we talked and goofed around and just had a good time. its nice to feel comfortable around her again, things were a little, weird there for a while


i can't sleep. and have wasted by carrie underwood stuck in my head. and i desperately want to go sit outside and talk to someone on the phone, just like the old days, too bad i have no friends to call and nothing to talk about other than the fact that i'm so fucking tired of bending over backwards for everybody and doing everything and anything for everyone and anyone and getting nothing in return. i'm so fucking tired of being alone. its not even funny anymore. its just not



comments that make sense this time
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with that homeless shadow tagging along
Listening to: Moments - Emerson Drive
I stood there tryin' to find my nerve
Wondering if a single soul on Earth
Would care at all
Miss me when I'm gone
That old man just kept hanging around
Lookin' at me, lookin' down
I think he recognized
That look in my eyes
Standing with him there I felt ashamed
I said, You know, I haven't always felt this way
I've had my moments, days in the sun
Moments I was second to none
Moments when I knew I did what I thought I couldn't do




today was ... okay?

first period was uber short. which sucks. daniel chopped all his hair off and still looks cute. kevin and i are actually getting along, like really well, i'm uber happy about that.

third period was a bust. the pie tasted like crap. two kids got sent to the office, one to top. we all bullshitted the whole period

lunch was fun. i talked to laur and aaron. then sat w/ nikki, kelsey, may, and austin and talked and joked around. it was the best.

yearbook was ok. it was really tense at first, but then things evened out. we delevired cookie dough, that was exciting. then we just sat around

ds was spent talking about stacey's b-day party and random stuff like that

seventh period was pretty gay. we got some packet on which bao, makayla, and i bs'd the whole thing. it was so gay. then we just sat there and played around on our computers

then i went and sat outside and lesley wasn't there so stacey called kevin and told him to tell her to come up front. she did and i gave her her note. then we sat there and talked. then staceyface left and lesley and i sat there and talked about the recent events...

mom came and got me and we went shopping. came home and changed. went to dinner w/ her and dad. then we went to target, blockbuster, and wawa. after that we came home and watched csi which was surpisingly good tonite. too little of greg though.

i'm outta

comments please
even if their ridicolously random and pointless, anything would be nice :-)
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and we might fall
Listening to: Wasted - Carrie Underwood
Feeling: alone
"If you have it [love], you don't need to have anything else. If you don't have it, it doesn't matter much what else you have."
Sir James M. Barrie









goodbye
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and i will rise
Listening to: spongebob
Feeling: amazed
our homework for mr. donahue is to get married and have 1.2 children. lol. way to go!



anyways... i'm really happy and excited today. idk why. nothing that great has happened, i just feel really happy :-)



comments

i'll update later. i promise
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she'd cry herself to sleep but she don't dare
Listening to: I Want To Save You - Something Corporate
Feeling: alright
today's been boring

US & VA History
watched a movie in which mark harmon narrates :-). but we didn't get to hear him :-(. took the quiz that i failed...

Foods & Wellness
she made these really good cinamon roll thingys. we did worksheets. thats about it

lunch
we can maked anything and everything on this planet sound perverted. lol. we had fun. it was great :-)

yearbook
eastman wasn't here. our sub let us do anything we wanted so we were sitting in our corner listening to music and just goofing off. :-)


i have to go to algebra II next. grr. i hate that class


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I always liked Elm Street
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Break my heart
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I said fuck that
Ever feel like breaking down
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Both of us broken, caught in...
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Live your life with arms wide...
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move along like I know you do
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someone to kill the spiders,...
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and when all your hope is gone
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never say forever b/c nothing...
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damn those men
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seth and I
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Stereotypical Gurls
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Stab My Back
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me and seth
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another one
friends
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GREG!!!
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every girl wants this
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