I have given up. On everything, it just isn't worth it anymore. Everything is fucked up and nothing can fix that and I'm so lost w/out that feeling that it isn't even funny. And I'm so tired of crying myself to sleep, but it seems the tears are the only thing that make sense right now. and it's just too much to ever think that I'm gonna be happy like them. Because I will forever be alone and I can't change that. God knows I want to. Because God knows that all I want is to be happy. But NO God doesn't want Brittany to be happy. And God doesn't want Brittany to be loved and to be treated nice like everyone else. ~~ love isn't real. it's stupid and pointless and people should just SHUT THE FUCK UP about it because it isn't really all that great when you spend every waking hour just wishing that you could have that. its stupid. and pointless. and it puts false hope in the hearts and minds of those of us who don't get the prividledge to experience it. Someone should sue Disney for putting the idea in little girl's minds that everyone has a Prince Charming and a Happy Ending! ... because I don't ~~ so yes. everyone can go screw themselves. this fucking sucks. and I was having a PERFECT day too. and now this.