My life hasn't turned out quite the way I want it to be

Listening to: Nickelback
Feeling: achy
1. I make mistakes. 2. I have regrets. 3. And they are in high numbers. 4. I hate being alone. 5. Yet I hate being in a crowd. 6. I'm always late. 7. I hate school. 8. I don't like being wrong. 9. I'm a huge procrastinator. 10. I hate being ignored. 11. I cry. 12. I'm shy. 13. I have enemies. 14. I laugh way too loud. 15. And at just about anything. 16. I can't look anyone in the eye. 17. Many things just seem to get to me. 18. My music is always way too loud. 19. I’m an honest person. 20. I hate being lied too. 21. I’m a reliable person. 22. I love rain. 23. I am addicted to “See the Sun”. 24. I take things a little too seriously sometimes. 25. I hate being treated like I know nothing. 26. I am a runner. 27. I have no self confidence. 28. I am a true believer in faith, hope, and prayer. 29. I do not believe in love. 30. I have discovered much about myself. 31. Yet I know nothing. 32. Short-shorts and converse’s are the only way to go. 33. Jeans and flip-flops are second. 34. I am only as quiet as the people around me. 35. I have a creative side. 36. I hate many. 37. But love so many more. 38. I am my own worst critic. 39. And enemy. 40. My heart is in shambles. 41. I love him more than life itself. 42. I can promise you nothing. 43. But give you hope for much more. 44. I am an only child and I hate it. 45. I have never had a boyfriend. 46. I always fall for the stupid ones. 47. Or the taken ones. 48. I could live with nothing but the ocean, music, and notebooks and pens. 49. I am an ultra-conservative. 50. I know nothing of what I believe. 51. My best-friend is my life. 52. So are the other three BFFs. 53. Writing owns me. 54. I am a fan of broom closets. 55. And Opium is the only way to get high. 56. I hate feet. 57. My family is life. 58. I can guarantee you that who you think I am is wrong. 59. I see things differently than other people. 60. I over think. 61. I am not good at English. 62. I can’t wait for summer. 63. I hate to drive. 64. I crave freedom. 65. I wanna be a Rockstar too. 66. Swimming could just possibly be my newest release. 67. I am a M&M, Smacked, and MDal shipper. 68. I hate my hair. 69. I love my legs. 70. I am an icon and quote whore. 71. I’m obsessed with Nickelback. 72. I think that “Figured You Out” could be the greatest degrading song ever. 73. I hate preps and stuck-up people. 74. Clowns scare me. 75. I’m a very emotional person. 76. I feel alone about 95% of the time. 77. Rascal Flatt’s “What Hurts the Most” is about the only song that makes me cry. 78. I love old TV shows. 79. I have an obsession ducks. 80. Soccer is my game. 81. I am often finding myself too be a loner. 82. I have no problem laughing at myself. 83. I hate it when people talk about me behind my back and then claim too be my best-friend. 84. I am sucker for guys who tickle. 85. Being my friend doesn’t mean that you have to impress me, it means that you have to respect me, my choices, and my life. 86. I am tomboy at heart. 87. But I still love to dress up. 88. And I love to shop. 89. I hate being me. 90. I love to cook. 91. I also love to eat. 92. Ya, sure, ya betcha. 93. Stargate is LOVE. 94. I can be the most complicated person you will ever meet. 95. I can also be the simplest person you will ever meet. 96. I am a closet M/D shipper. 97. I could not live without comedy TV shows. 98. Italy is where I wanna go. 99. Lake Lure is where I wanna be. 100. I’m at 100 so I wanna congratulate you on finishing this. 101. Apparently I fall for gay men, which could explain some things. 102. I hate bug bites. 103. I know what leaves taste like. 104. Brigadier General Jack O’Neill could just possibly be the greatest character ever created. 105. Making Leroy Jethro Gibbs the second greatest character ever. 106. Luke Danes being the third, ever. 107. I love to fish. 108. Even though I don’t know how. 109. I really want of those little lighty-upping balls from Stargate that glows red. 110. I also want a staff weapon, so I can kill somebody with it. 111. Flying would be one thing I really wanna know before I die. 112. I am not ashamed to admit that I have a fan-girl crush on Eddie Cahill. 113. Sarcasm is an excuse to not tell people how you really feel. 114. Gregory Sanders is one of the hottest guys ever. 115. AIM is NOT a healthy addiction, but I don’t know how I would live without it. 116. I am a VERY patriotic person. 117. Stargate quotes are hilarious. 118. I find that people who are fake really have no lives. 119. I hate fake people. 120. And stupid people. 121. Which is why I hate myself I guess, because I’m stupid. 122. I am now officially scared to death of high kicks. 123. I fall on my ass doing just about everything. 124. I love flowers. 125. They make me sneeze. 126. I feel little remorse for people who act like people don’t matter just because of the way they think. 127. I really wish those people would get over themselves. 128. I honestly don’t care what people say about me. 129. What I don’t like is when people say things about me right in front of my face and try to make it look like they aren’t. 130. I love the feel of sand beneath my feet. 131. The only other song that I cry too is “Tonight I Wanna Cry” by Keith Urban. 132. Trans-Siberian Orchestra throws the best concerts ever, without a doubt, no questions asked. 133. Light shows rock my world. 134. Toe-nails are nasty. 135. My Dell computer is wack. 136. I am a very in-depth person. 137. I wanna a Thor. 138. Killing Janet made me cry. 139. I think I’ve only cried during one movie, that being “A Walk to Remember”. 140. I cried when they killed Kate, when they blew-up Flack, when Gibbs left, and from screaming so hard when they blew up half the cast of The Agency. 141. I’m really supposed to be doing my English homework right now. 142. I screamed like a five year old girl when Sam kissed Jack. 143. Yelling at me will get you nowhere. 144. I have no idea how I got to 144. 145. Call me a slut, call me whore, call me whatever, because I really don’t mind. 146. There are NO fish in the pond, yet we fish. 147. I do like money, but then again, who doesn’t? 148. Panoodles are the shit. 149. Its wood!! 150. I have no life, that’s how I got to #150. 151. I twirl my hair. 152. My leg bounces when I’m nervous, or hungry, or when I have to pee. 153. I am also a closet Groph shipper. 154. I am a picture taking whore. 155. I play poker with three drunk, old men … for fun. 156. SKMEHBKLCS is sometimes the only reason I get up in the morning. 157. The “shake it, shake it, Dadio, Dadio” song could just be the most annoying thing ever. 158. Or maybe that’s Josh Turner singing anything. 159. CSI has been ruined, ‘nough said. 160. My favorite and lucky number is 8. 161. I played travel soccer for two years, four seasons, three coaches, three teams. 162. I was in the Virginia State Olympics my first year. 163. We won 3rd place out of four teams. 164. We we’re the rookies. 165. I have no idea why I had to make that into four different things. 166. There is no logical explanation as to why I love him so much, I just do. 167. Blowing Rock, Wrightsville Beach, and Lake Lure, NC are the only three places I would want to live. 168. The summer of 2006 is gonna rock, I just sense it. 169. I hate to clean, so don’t ask me too do it. 170. When I was seven my older brother told my six year old brother that if he ate grass he would turn into a cow. 171. My brother ate the grass. 172. We’ve both always wanted to be cows. 173. I have an odd attraction to llamas and monkeys. 174. I really want a pet monkey. 175. I also have an odd attraction to Ferris Wheels. 176. I am the most impatient person you will ever meet. 177. Working for NCIS is my dream job. 178. Next would be working for the CIA. 179. Secret Service comes next. 180. And if all else fails, I’m really good with kids. 181. #181 is dedicated to Sydney – Snails move faster than hot blonde guys who wear ugly hats and wish they could have sex with the blonde in an elevator. 182. That has got to be one of the greatest inside jokes ever. 183. I have a lot of inside jokes with people. 184. Most of them are with Heather. 185. Heather’s dad wanted to buy a Filipino, but he “died”, so now he can’t have her. 186. It’s strange how Heather can eat just about anything at anytime of the day. 187. Including the time we ate sour patch kids until 2 am. 188. “Just when I thought that I had no reason left to smile, I met you.” 189. Code Red Mountain Dew does not go well with anything sour. 190. My N64 is the bomb. 191. I’m such a nerd. 192. I listen to country music and I’m not afraid to say it. 193. I cry to “Crawling Back to You” by the Backstreet Boys. 194. It has sentimental value. 195. I think the word “justifiable” is pretty damn sweet. 196. Snitzlefritz. 197. I once put my little brother in a trashcan. 198. I used to play Capture the Flag with 13 other people for hours at a time. 199. The record stood at four hours and thirty or so minutes. 200. I miss my old neighborhood more than anything in this world. 201. I really, really wanna go back to being a kid. 202. Being a teenager pretty much sucks. 203. Love is so totally over-rated. 204. My first name sucks. 205. Its way too common. 206. My middle name is better, much better. 207. My first midnight movie was also rated R, and it was about Japanese people killing Americans. 208. We were the only four in the theater. 209. The fact that I can come up with 209 things to say about me is surprising. 210. I don’t wanna be called sexy, I wanna be called beautiful, even cute will do. 211. We honestly do not devote enough scientific research to finding a cure for jerks. 212. I think I would like to be the one to discover that. 213. Too bad I suck at science. 214. I also think that I would like to be a professional cheese taster. 215. I am partially deaf in my right ear. 216. It’s from a childhood illness/injury. 217. Death to the Nazi’s (including Karen). 218. I find it funny how people think they get to me when I don’t even consider them a person or a friend. 219. I get injured very easily. 220. I should have been in bed an hour ago. 221. I really wanna learn how to Ballroom Dance. 222. And Salsa Dance. 223. But I have no rhythm. 224. I also admit to crying at “Who You’d Be Today” by Kenny Chesney. 225. I’ve never met either one of my grandfathers. 226. I am a proud supporter of the United States Armed Forces. 227. More so the Navy and Marines than Army and Air Force. 228. I have the utmost respect for our soldiers. 229. I drink lots of water. 230. I have many scars. 231. Some mental, some emotional, some physical. 232. I honestly believe that Polo Shirts are one of the greatest things since sliced bread. 233. I really don’t wanna die, I just wanna be saved. 234. And loved. 235. And I wanna feel like I’m not so alone. 236. I tend to talk about him too much. 237. If I do, just tell me shut-up. 238. I really don’t trust that many people. 239. Although I may act like it. 240. I wanna feel like I made an impact on someone’s life. 241. Dancing in the rain is the best. 242. So is swimming in it. 243. The shapes of the world freak me out. 244. Except for Triangle. 245. I love Triangle. 246. I am a fan of oldies music. 247. Thunderstorms are only cool when you don’t have to sleep. 248. The sound of rain puts me too sleep. 249. Along with the sound of waves crashing against the shore. 250. I love the smell of salt water. 251. Bikini’s are the best. 252. I really wanna go to Radford University. 253. Appalachian State is second. 254. And UNCW covers the rest. 255. The one language I wanna speak more than anything in the world is Italian. 256. Taking my dad’s CDs is fun. 257. Especially when he doesn’t notice and everyone else does. 258. I really hate slut-puppies. 259. Traveling is life. 260. It’s my release. 261. Yes, I do know what I want to name my kids. 262. History is my favorite subject. 263. Math is the least. 264. I really wanna do all 101 of the “101 Things You Know You Shouldn’t Do, But You Know You Wanna Do, At Walmart”. 265. I’m a hopeless romantic. 266. I’m addicted to fanfic.net 267. I believe in living for the moment. 268. I think its harder to let go of things you never had than those that you did. 269. Hate is a four letter word, but love is a four letter lie. 270. Love may be a eight letter word, but then again, so is bull-shit. 271. I am full of failures. 272. I am a disappointment to many. 273. I have a headache. 274. I get headaches a lot. 275. I believe in having the time of your life, even if you have to break a few rules to do so. 276. Sitdiary is suwheet. 277. And he could have me in a heart-beat if he wanted. 278. I will never pretend to understand guys. 279. I speak my mind. 280. I have a foul mouth. 281. And no, I will not control it. 282. I am my own person. 283. You’ll never find another girl like me. 284. I hide because I wanna know who’s gonna look for me. 285. If I walk away from you its because I just wanna see if you, or anyone else, cares enough to follow. 286. I cry to see who will wipe away the tears. 287. My heart is broken, I’m just waiting to see who will come and fix it. 288. Feelings fade, people change, the world keeps spinning, you just have to learn to move on, even if it’s the hardest thing you’ll ever do. 289. That’s how I see life now. 290. I’m just the girl next door. 291. Fight for what you want. 292. Fight for what you love. 293. Never give-up. 294. I love being weird. 295. Cut your head off pictures rock my world. 296. I’m all about doing the unthinkable, especially when other people think I won’t do it. 297. I think I really was meant to spend the rest of my life alone. 298. I’m gonna carve your name into a bullet, that way, you’ll be the last thing going through my head. 299. I am the author of my own life, however, I’m writing in pen and can’t erase my mistakes. 300. This is my life, thanks for reading.
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