its me again. I haven't updated lately. well not that is interesting anyways. not that this will be. so here it goes. I feel like crap. not b/c I'm sick, but because I miss Kevin. *sigh* it sucks. after all he's put me through I just can't get him out of my head. it sucks. I can't sleep, I haven't since I fell for him. and its stupid because I don't even have him. I don't know why I ever said that I would be fine. because I'm not. I'm far from fine. I'm lost and I feel horrible. I haven't seen him or talked to him since we got out in June. I can't take it. if I don't find someone or something else to take him off my mind I'm gonna do something I regret. *sigh* I feel like the biggest loser in the world. I just can't get him out of my head and my life. And I know that everyone else things its the most retarded thing in the world, but I can't help it. Its just killing me and tearing me up inside. *sigh* I just don't know anymore. I hate being alone, and sitting on the sidelines. I know that I'm not beautiful, or funny, or smart, or any of that stuff and I think that that hurts more than anything else. I'm so tired of it all. *sigh*
comments could make me feel better. maybe