One of my new mottos (Title of Entry.) I just decided that this is going to be one of my new relaxing things to do. I'm going to get a good song that sounds good when you turn it up (particularly with the bass high) zone out and just write in my 'diary'. What do you do when you just want to mellow out? Now that I think about it, I really should be doing an essay for Sociology but I can't think about that right now, I've just got too much on my mind, I'm sure you know what that is like. I'm slowly trying to figure things out and solve this issue regarding her and such but I am meeting with very little success. I wonder how she's going to handle things consequently, I always wonder how it will effect me. I really hope that didn't sound shallow - I'm really not superfical/ unloving or anything like that... though I doubt if you believe or know me so I'll just shut up now :o( Oh well, all's well that ends well... I think. I had very little choices though. But I've decided that instead of drowning myself in all of the occurances, that I should do like my amigo Autumnstarlight (she's really cool) and just go out roaming tonight w/ some of my friends. But then again, you wouldn't know what I'm talking about unless you go to her diary... Nevermind. They gave me homework over the Christmas break! Do you believe this? It's because when they cut OAC, they 'had' to make the cirriculum more difficult and hence the justification for them 'having' to overload us is present. I've got a whole novel to read for one class, write an essay in another and then prepare a presentation for Soc. Bloody school boards. And I've noticed something too - over the years, all of the teachers who give homework over the break are either NOT married or are just mean all the year through; check that out for me. RHCP [red hot chilli peppers] made me happier. I came home in such a distraught mood and for some reason I saw this CD at the bottom of the pile and something compelled me to put it in the player. "I got dosed by you and closer then most to you and what am I supposed to do, take it away? I never had it anyway. take it away and everythig will be okay?" That kinda discribes how fustrated I get with things from time to time. Everyday I see a lot of my friends/ associates who are in a situation they don't deserve to be in and I feel so helpless. I mean, all of this stuff's going on and I'm virtually powerless to help them. I just wanted to see if I'm the only one who feels like this though... I wonder if the world has become such an unloving place. Stupid being a pisces and such - comes in handy but it can be a pain as well. What sign are you? That is, if you even follow that stuff. I tend to find that generally it can be rather insightful as to how a person's personality is or even how they'l react to certain things. [Key word being genreally.] At any rate, it's 4:44 [PM] which means that I've already spent too much time writing (always seems to happen.) So on that note I will stop. Good day, -Captain B. Gone