Ahoy. I got myself a date for the prom a few days ago. Felt etremely good because I think we like each other, but nothing'll probbaly become of us... again. I hate that feeling and so does she, but there's nothing we can change. We've been friends for three years and I discounted her involvment in the prom and I just threw it out there one day... It paid off because she was originally on my list so now I'm not only grateful, I was really happy. I my spent Friday night with her; five hours, though I wish it were six. Things just seem different when I'm around her... things just seem different in general. *shakes head* Found out a lot of things about each other that night and if I could do it all again, I wouldn't change a thing. Well, I'd change my hesitation on the bridge, but I tihnk it was made up for in another weird way below the bridge. I heard this song a few years ago... the same december I started dating her and this year I figured out who sings it so I'm going to post it here... it's funny because.. well... ya. Met my old lover in a grocery store The snow was falling Christmas Eve Stole behind her in the frozen foods and I touched her on the sleeve She didn't recognize the face at first but then her eyes flew open wide Tried to hug me and she spilled her purse and we laughed until we cried -- Took her groceries to the checkout stand The food was totaled up and bagged stood there lost in our embarrassment as the conversation dragged Went to have ourselves a drink or two but couldn't find an open bar Bought a six-pack at the liquor store and we drank it in the car -- We drank a toast to innocence, we drank a toast to now Tried to reach beyond the emptiness but neither one knew how -- She said she'd married her an architect Kept her warm and safe and dry She said she'd like to say she loved the man but she didn't want to lie I said the years had been a friend to her and that her eyes were still as blue But in those eyes I wasn't sure if I saw doubt or gratitude She said she saw me in the record store and that I must be doing well I said the audience was heavenly but the traveling was hell -- We drank a toast to innocence, we drank a toast to now Tried to reach beyond the emptiness but neither one knew how We drank a toast to innocence we drank a toast to time We're living in our eloquence, another old lang syne -- The beers were empty and our tongues grew tired and running out of things to say She gave a kiss to me as I got out and I watched her drive away Just for a moment I was back in school And felt that old familiar pain And as I turned to make my way back home the snow turned into rain. That's the song.Fell in love with it around the same time her and I were serious. I never thought I'd have to watch her drive the train right by my station w/o stopping, but I found out Friday night that that's the case. And you know what the hardest part was? Her eyes were still as blue... Distantly yours, -Captain B. Watching the Train