AHHHHHHHH! I hate this. I absolutely hate this with a passion. Everytime she calls me to talk to me I'm not home or I'm asleep. Great timing! For those of you wondering what's going on read Jan 1. entry and for those of you who want the fullish story read the Dec. 15 entry. There's more to it then that but... well that'll just about explain it, kind of. Man, Superman was so right with what she said (never thought I'd be calling superman 'she' -ha!) Even just waiting to do this is really taking it's toll on me. I've been disconnected and distraugh for a good part of the day, I lost my appetite (and if you know me, you'll know that that never happens.) I had to struggle to keep my dinner down tonight, and that was my only meal for the day mind you. *exhales* I really want to do this now to get it over with so that she'll have tonight and the weekend to try and cope but I have to wait until she calls 'cause I can't call her (her parent's are nuts- literally crazy.) May this be a lesson to all of you: never date anyone with crazy parents -ever. I'm dead serious, it totally limits things, more then you can imagine (get your mind out of the gutter please and thank you.) But yea, I guess Im going to have to wait - hopefully she'll call tonight so I can get this over with once and for all. Maybe crazy parents are too bad, now that I think about it. Just be extremely careful with them and their kids - nuts they can be, the whole lot of 'em. But yea sometimes I just don't know. For those of you who know the song I'm listening to up there - it's got nothing to do with the semi-girlfriend, it's about someone else, she knows who she is so it's all good. Don't worry -I'm not a cheater if that's what you're thinking, I can love many people at the same time - particularly since I'm about to break up with my RL person here. I can't explain it but I'm sure you know what I'm talking about... kinda. Just give me some time away from these folks and just spend it with you guys here on sitD, that would be awesome - you're all so bloody supportive and understand... well, that is, the females that I've met and written thus far. Thank you all for your continued support particularly those of you out there who actually care (you know who you guys are). Merci, -Captain B. Waiting