School sucked nothing interesting happened...English class was pretty funny though...Mr. Becker was telling Mike if he had to take a shit he has to hurry and Mike was like "I needed a magazine" lol...you had to be there to think it was funny. Well I'm getting a 78% average in Geometry...94% in English 3...American History 2 I'm failing and I'm also failing my Environmental Science class lol. I got to hold a real T-Rex tooth...it's like the size of my fore arm man lol! Me and Sarah were discussing how she's going to kill herself and her driving instructor today...she's not gonna make it to Heaven and haunt Mike all his life...and Mike is going to ask her to turn back into a human so they can fuck lmao!!! Matt was swinging me around at lunch...got really dizzy lol. Matt is being so fucking weird...he didn't come to my locker he told me why but I couldn't even hear him cause the hallway was too crowded and loud. As soon as he signed online he puts up an away message saying..."very pissed, dont wanna talk to anyone including you pam"...I mean really what the fuck is up with that? I didn't even fucking do anything!!!!! It's like the longer we're together the more weird and tense it gets...and I don't care if Matt is reading this cause he always does and I'm an open person so I'm just saying what I feel. Things are so different now since the first few days we were going out...I'm actually afraid of him...how sad is that? One of these days he's gonna get really pissed at me and hit me, I just know it. Even Ron thinks that too. And I'm sure the rest of my friends think the same. I mean I feel safe in his arms like nothing could ever hurt me but then there are times where I feel like I'm holding onto the edge of a cliff and there's no one to save me. I don't know, I'm so confused right now. Ugh I hate not knowing what's wrong. He didn't seem mad at me at lunch so I have no clue. And if he isn't mad I don't see why he wouldn't want to talk to me. Isn't that part of being in a relationship? Is to talk about stuff that is bothering you. Even though things are just a little weird right now...I could never love him less...I just fall in love with him more each day. He is all I look forward to anymore...being in his arms is the highlight of my day. Hmm well I guess I'll update later if anything else happens. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH MATT!!!