Things actually turned out worse than I thought. Mike's parents won't let me see him period. Or at least until I get my life together. I'm so fuckin tired, I haven't slept in the past 3 nights. I stayed home from school yesterday cus I was so depressed, I was up all night crying. My mom is depressed because I am, so she doesn't even want to put up a Christmas tree this year. But we're going to have one up even if I have to do it myself. My brother and my dad are pissed off about how Mike's dad handled the situation. My dad wanted to call up Mike's dad and talk to him but I wouldn't let him cus he would just make things alot worse. Yesterday me and Alicia went to the Country Shop and they weren't hiring, neither was Kindercare or Rite Aid. We went to Dunkin Donuts and got applications but we couldn't even fuckin understand the Indians so fuck that. I applied at Blockbuster, that took like a fuckin hour. Then I went to the pet shop by Cost Cutters and they didn't have anymore applications, but I picked one up today. I also went to Guidance Office and picked up an ACT registration packet. I'm gonna take those instead of the SAT's cus it's cheaper and easier and it can also get me into OCC, so it's all good lol. My dad made some agreements with me for my next report card, and said he "might" get me a car as a graduation present but it's gonna be of his choice and it's not gonna be a new car... boo that! Alicia pissed me the fuck off today, she's lucky I didn't punch her in the face. I love you soooo fuckin much Mike! Don't worry babe, I'll make everything alright again... I'm not giving up on us. 9-10-05 it's you and me always and forever!