It was another shitty day as usual... Matt was talking to Alicia and Sarah in the cafeteria when school was over and he showed them the chain he was going to hit Zinab with...and as soon as he saw me walk into the room he walked out...bitch. I chilled with Sarah...we went to ShopRite and McDonald's...as we were walking back to my house Corey pulled over so we got in the car so he could drive us back to my house...that shit was scary as hell...he was like doing fucking 90mph lol I thought I was gonna piss my pants. Then he drove Sarah to work so I went with him...he was trying to get me to sit in the front when we dropped Sarah off..."sit in the front it feels so weird when you're sitting back there"...okay psycho lol. Then as usual he was bugging me to hook up with him and as usual I said no lol. Matt and Joe had their bikes in my driveway cause they were over Marjorie's house next door...my mom came inside bitching at me about it so I texted him saying "please remove your bike from my driveway it's not a parking lot." So they came out and moved the bikes. I asked Ron if he still hates me and he said he does...which completely made me beyond depressed. I just got done fighting with Shaun...ugh someone always pisses me off everyday. Here's that conversation... JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: do u hate me? TTacomaPimP: of course JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: alright dat makez 3 ppl so far TTacomaPimP: who else? JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: ron n' matt...im doin a poll maybe if i get enuf ill kill myself TTacomaPimP: i dont hate u TTacomaPimP: but u dont got act lik such ahrdass roudn ur lil peoples JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: den y'd u say of course JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: hardass? JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: i was defending my frendz TTacomaPimP: u were tryin to be cool ifn front of the 12 yr olds JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: how was i trying to be cool? JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: i wasnt even talking to dem TTacomaPimP: u usuaklky nicer wen not round them TTacomaPimP: so why does ron hate u JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: i was in a pissed off mood dat day n' ur frendz talkin shit bout mine werent makin my mood ne better... JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: ron hatez me cuz he saw a convo between me n' matt n' i was makin fun of ron cuz i was mad at him so now he hatez me TTacomaPimP: o TTacomaPimP: well larry says ur friends r ugly he couldnt help it TTacomaPimP: least hes bein honest JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: he doeznt look any better himself JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: who carez JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: it doeznt benefit him in anyway TTacomaPimP: he can do a lot better JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: why are u being such an asshole TTacomaPimP: u cant admit ur friends arent hot and cnt get sick without begin for it? JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: 1) i dont judge gurlz lookz 2) i dont go by lookz 3) they are my best frendz 4) like i said 2 ur prick ass frend keep ur fuckin commentz 2 urself TTacomaPimP: u kno my friends speak their mind... JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: well their ur frendz...n' obviously u r da 1 talkin rite now not ur frendz TTacomaPimP: actually larys the oen who was lookin over my shouldre and started typin JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: ya sure JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: like ill believe dat 1 TTacomaPimP: im an asshole i kno ive ben told JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: i im'd u askin u a simple question den u have 2 start shit by bring dis up TTacomaPimP: esp to peole who dick me over JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: maybe if u didnt ignore me it wudnt have happened JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: once matt vreeland went bac up north u stopped coming over TTacomaPimP: well maybe if u werent slutty u wouldnt need ass all th time JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: i cud care less about getting ass i wanted a fucking boyfriend but obviously u cudnt even do that correctly TTacomaPimP: i know how to do it....wen i wasnt there it was bc i was trapped in the move findin place to live and trryin to work....wen i finally got settled it was too late u were already scrrwin roun JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: not my fuckin problem im not gonna sit there and wait TTacomaPimP: wen i first met u u had problems and i hlped u and waited but u didnt even offer ur help and u coudlnt wait TTacomaPimP: all u wanted was soem dick not a bf JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: no actually i didnt want dick i wanted a bf but if hez not gonna be there den hez not fuckin worth it, itz as simple as dat...i waited for u for 3 fucking monthz shaun datz fucked up TTacomaPimP: u didnt wait that lonf TTacomaPimP: i didnt see u for two weeks and u were already fuckinr on again TTacomaPimP: u wouldnt fucked ron if u wanted more than jus dick wen u were supposley wid me JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: if im in a relationship n' i dont get 2 see da guy den oh well fuck dat shit JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: n' im not all bout dick, u dont kno 1 thing bout me TTacomaPimP: my name is pam and if my bf wont pout out ot me bc he wants mor than jus sex so she doesnt think thats all he wants..im go fuck somewhwere else cuz i need to get dick JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: i cud have cared less if u put out or not all i wanted was to fuckin hang out with u my fuckin god get da point already, jus becuz i fucked ron alot doeznt mean all i want is dick, n' i havent fucked ron every damn time either jackass cuz i do want a bf, i do want a fuckin relationship but if u werent gonna be there den 2 fuckin abd JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: bad TTacomaPimP: u jus made no sense JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: i made perfect sense TTacomaPimP: u want bf and u ant more than jsu dick but evrtime u seen ron u had to fuck him TTacomaPimP: menain thats all u wanted JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: i didnt fuck him everytime sum of da time was hanging out JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: no datz not all i wanted JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: u dont kno 1 fuckin thing bout me JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: u dont kno shit at all TTacomaPimP: u fucked him the first tiem u chylled wid him while u were till wid me.....and that was before me nd u were fightin nd not seein eachj other JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: umm no cuz i wudnt do dat if i was still able to see u...i didnt start fuckin him until after u stopped coming around TTacomaPimP: ok TTacomaPimP: r u sayin u want me to com aroun mor TTacomaPimP: i do live right down the street almost now....and um got a car on the road JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: not nemore cuz now im not in2 u im jus stating factz bout da past TTacomaPimP: from the pST? TTacomaPimP: im settled in in seaside now and i got my car goin good TTacomaPimP: got a job TTacomaPimP: i can be there even easier JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: once again...im not into you anymore so it wouldn't matter now it's too late TTacomaPimP: ok TTacomaPimP: who do u want now then JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: apparently nobody now TTacomaPimP: ud be into me if i proved reliable JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: no once i'm over someone then it's done TTacomaPimP: ive never gon bak to an ex ever JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: want an award? TTacomaPimP: nd ur lyin cuz look at ron TTacomaPimP: i want a monumnet JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: i was never over ron JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: n' im still not JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: i just tried to get over ron but it didn't work TTacomaPimP: so i was rebound slingshot guy? JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: no This is so fucked up like almost every school in the state of New Jersey has no school tomorrow cause there are supposedly bomb threats within the high schools on the election day...and guess what...MY SCHOOL DOESN'T GET OUT!!! Watch now we're all gonna fucking die lol. Alright I'm gonna go do my book report now...peace. UPDATE: ( 8:45pm ) People just love to start and talk so much shit it's unbelievable...and she can bitch all she wants about me putting it in my journal cause shit ain't gonna change...here's the conversation with Nikki... xOoSeXyMaMiioOx: heyy why do u have mi pictures of my friends on ur picture site and have mi boyfriend labeled as jack JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: cuz jack n' ron were my frendz...n' i have jack labeled as jack not my fault if jackz on every1'z shoulderz where i cant put his name xOoSeXyMaMiioOx: u have mi boyfriend labeled as jack nd its not even him he isnt even in that picture xOoSeXyMaMiioOx: with the plaid shirt xOoSeXyMaMiioOx: those are mi pictures JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: my bad xOoSeXyMaMiioOx: u deff. got them from mi site i used to have apix site nd had them on their .. and those are mine and dont want my boyfriend on ur fuckin site JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: do sumthin bout it sweety xOoSeXyMaMiioOx: thats plagerisum JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: hahaha JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: me caring? JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: o0o JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: you gonna sue me now xOoSeXyMaMiioOx: no .. but fuckin dunt label andrew as jack he doesnt even look like him .. and ur not friends with andrew ryan or dale or anyone like that xOoSeXyMaMiioOx: when i hang out with them they talk about how much they hate u nd how ugly u are xOoSeXyMaMiioOx: why the fuck do u put ur conversations with people on ur journal JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: y is it any of ur god damn fuckin business wtf i do JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: ur a fuckin skanky 15 yr old bitch who'z being used 4 ass...ron n' jack tell me all da time dat andrew is using u xOoSeXyMaMiioOx: u make it look like ur involved in everyones life ... and there is no need for jess's convo with u and her problems to be on ur journal xOoSeXyMaMiioOx: haha im not 15 JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: n' itz none of ur god damn business xOoSeXyMaMiioOx: yes it is .. it so happens that jess is my best friend JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: n' it so happenz dat shez talking to me asking advice bout frankie JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: so am i caring whut ur sayin right now JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: nope xOoSeXyMaMiioOx: all im asking is that u take my pictures off ur mother fucking site JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: o0o0o using foul wordz now aye JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: dat aint gettin u 2 far hun xOoSeXyMaMiioOx: and if anything ur being used JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: i kno i was being used y do u think i left him JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: not my fault if u dont realize it urself yet xOoSeXyMaMiioOx: u dunt even know andrew ... so how could u say ne of this JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: dont kno andrew? hez im'd me plenty of timez talkin shit JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: plus he stole my frendz bike dat i rode 2 brick xOoSeXyMaMiioOx: yea and what has he sed to u in those ims JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: calling me a whore, etc. he doesn't know me well enough to know if i'm a whore or not xOoSeXyMaMiioOx: u can tell by the fuckin pictures u put on ur site .. who the hell does that ... let me think .. a whore JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: you don't know me either...so what i put pictures on there, i like to express myself, do you consider girls in playboy whores too? xOoSeXyMaMiioOx: they are actually pretty and guys like them .. ur just ugly JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: lol y r u even judging me...do u go 4 gurlz? xOoSeXyMaMiioOx: no but i knoe if ur pretty for not ... all girls do .... what r u not a girl JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: no i jus dont judge nebody by their lookz cuz im not a fuckin bitch like most ppl r xOoSeXyMaMiioOx: exactly ur not a bitch .. ur a whore JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: like 4 u 2 say dat 2 my face xOoSeXyMaMiioOx: alrighty xOoSeXyMaMiioOx is away at 8:19:57 PM. xOoSeXyMaMiioOx returned at 8:33:57 PM. xOoSeXyMaMiioOx signed off at 8:37:40 PM. *obviously she doesn't know the definition of a whore* shall I give her a clue... "A prostitute. To accept payment in exchange for sexual relations." Sorry hunny but I don't fuck random people off the streets nor do I get paid for fucking them. I only fuck the people I care about. Sorry to break it to ya. I was also talking to Jess again...she's still upset about Frankie not talking to her...I tried my best to make her feel better. Now all we can do is hope for the best. Surprisingly Ron IM'd me out of nowhere but he still hates me he just decided to IM me cause he was "bored." I wish he would stop hating me. I miss him so much :( I miss Matt too :( but I have to move on...cause I have nothing left...I have no one now. UPDATE: ( 10:40pm)... Megan is missing again...but this time I'm extremely worried...her dad called me 2 times and this lady named Fran called me. I hope she's okay. I don't know what the fuck I'll do if something happened to her.