( 11:37pm ) Wow I haven't updated this thing in like forever... Anyways...me and Matt are still cool with each other. We played manhunt Saturday and Sunday night. I did pretty good on Sunday. Matt came up from behind me scaring the shit out of me lol. My cell phone screen is all fucked up from falling out of my pocket when I was running. Tara tried being all nice and shit to me which was kinda funny lol. Matt's mom still talks to me and drives me home so I'm still confused about this whole her hating me thing. After she dropped me off at home Sunday night...few minutes goes by I hear a pounding knock on my front door...nobody was there...later on I found out it was Frankie and Ron trying to play ding dong ditch on me since my doorbell isn't working lol. Then a few minutes after that Megan comes over to sleepover. Monday before I went out to eat with my parents...Andrew, Joe, and Rob come over...I was basically chilling with Andrew more cause Joe and Rob were chilling with my neighbors. Matt told me that Andrew thinks I'm hot lmao! Tuesday and Wednesday during school it felt like Matt was trying to avoid me but he claims that he wasn't. Things started to get back to normal on Thursday when he started chilling with me and Zinab during lunch again. Friday during lunch the fucker attacked me with a rubber band...wouldn't doubt it if I still had the mark on my back. Kept tickling me too lol. Jack has been acting like an asshole lately. Ron was supposed to come over yesterday but he didn't want to. At like around 11:15pm last night the phone rings...I pick up...it was Frankie and he asked if him, Ron and the rest of the crew could come over and if I would sneak out since I'm not allowed to have guys over after 11...I said no obviously...so they said they'll probably come over Saturday...well it's Saturday and yeah they never came ARGG!!! I talked to Sarah on the phone last night...that was very interesting..."have you ever fallen asleep doing something" Sarah and her randomness lmao! I talked to Zinab earlier today on the phone...nothing interesting there. I FINALLY saw a picture of Patrick...he's adorable...about freaking time man!!! Missy moved away this morning :( Corey was all upset cause he didn't get to say goodbye to her...and he was also bugging me to hook up with him as usual. Haha Matt was talking to Corey telling him to leave me alone last night lol. Shaun called me up when I was chilling with Matt and his friends...for like no reason at all Shaun started bugging out on Matt *rolls eyes* Sean Christy IM'd me the other night bitching telling me to get Alicia to stop calling his cell phone pertending to be someone else...then he tried having a normal conversation with me which didn't work out to well lol. Matt's 15th birthday is in 2 days...WAHOO! lol. Matt still tries to come over whenever Ron is over...protects me even though we're not going out at the moment...cute. I need to start putting out more trust in Matt...I'm sorry that I've been acting so rediculous and such a bitch lately babe, it's just that I'm afraid that I'll lose you or you'll walk out of my life like the rest and I don't want that to happen...I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!! Hmm I think my brother is coming over tomorrow. All I know is that I'm gonna be watching movies all day...alone...that is if someone decides to join me...hopefully someone does...more than one person would be a plus :) You know what is really weird Chris Deblasi, sophomore in my Geometry and Computer Graphic Design class...has been staring at me constantly during class, recently started talking to me...and during our lunch he'll throw something at me or move my notebook and I'll yell out to him "I saw that!" lol...I don't know I have a feeling he likes me or something. He's a funny ass kid though...his locker is 2 lockers down from mine on the right...and he never remembers his combination and he just bugs out all the time...I don't know I find really stupid shit funny sometimes lol. I'm so excited...Sarah is gonna let Mike hang out with me again...so I'll most likely get to chill with him the weekend after next...YAY! I miss him lol. Well I guess that's about it for now. I'll end this with conversations... ( Conversation with Ron yesterday... ) RONC495401: hi Auto response from JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: Mickey Divorces Minnie Judge: Mickey you can't divorce Minnie on the account that she's silly. Mickey: I didn't say she was silly, I said she was fucking Goofy!! JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: hi RONC495401: what up JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: nm jus got done eating JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: u? RONC495401: just got back from going to the game but it canceled JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: o0o RONC495401: yup RONC495401: so what new JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: nothing JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: u wanna come over after my rentz get bac from going to an awake funeral thingy RONC495401: wen that JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: 7-9 but they said they'll probably be back b4 9 RONC495401: yea RONC495401: y don't i come at 645 JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: cuz i cant have you come over idk how long they will be there for they might go for only 20 minutez n' they might not RONC495401: o RONC495401: well qill see i sapodst to go to a prep rally JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: at night? RONC495401: yea RONC495401: for pop waner JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: o0o RONC495401: yea JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: i thought u werent doin pop warner nemore RONC495401: i am i am coaching ryans team JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: lol o god, i feel sorry 4 u havin 2 coach dat douche RONC495401: na JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: o ya i already asked matt if he was plannin 2 show up when u r here n' he said no dat he has shit 2 do tomorrow RONC495401: o RONC495401: is dad going to work JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: no i already told u his off JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: he's* RONC495401: did u ask if i was aloud over JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: my dad doesn't care who comes over lol JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: u can bring jack tonight or tomorrow if u want...i dont mind hurting him O:-) RONC495401: hes hang out with his gurl JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: BOO!!! a gurl he cant get shit from hahahaha RONC495401: hop RONC495401: how u no JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: hmm y else wud he ask me 2 hook up wit him JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: dis sux no manhunt 2nite cuz of da rain n' plus matt is goin to 180 teen center to play ddr RONC495401: hey ui do it with me al the time JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: so lol RONC495401: that in brick JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: i kno RONC495401: and it all about god RONC495401: thevpray and shit there JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: lol i kno RONC495401: o RONC495401: u 2 going out yet JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: no RONC495401: o RONC495401: i been sungle for 1 month so far RONC495401: sing JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: me 8 days RONC495401: kool JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: not really lol RONC495401: yb JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: cuz it sux RONC495401: y it sux JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: it jus doez i dont like bein alone RONC495401: y no dick 2 JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: no i cud still get dick RONC495401: from JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: matt, u n' im sure therez plenty of other ppl out there RONC495401: yea i aask u back out a long time ago but there no answer JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: i told matt dat i wud wait RONC495401: wait for him JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: ya RONC495401: then y u geting dick from me then JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: dat was once RONC495401: do u still want it JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: no RONC495401: u don't want my dick JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: no RONC495401: y JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: cuz i dont wanna fuck thingz up again RONC495401: how your not going out with him JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: but still if i did fuck u he wudnt go back out wit me, he got mad when i did fuck u RONC495401: then we shoun't hang out then on satduars or any days JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: y RONC495401: bc u no what happens JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: itz not gonna happen nemore RONC495401: right we say that all the tim JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: lol shutup JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: im bein serious RONC495401: then i not coming tonight bc i no what gunna happen JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: MY PARENTS WILL BE HOME NOTHING CAN HAPPEN RONC495401: if i try to kiss u RONC495401: i don't think we should hang out untill u get your head strieght JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: my head is straight JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: i know what i am doing RONC495401: no u don't JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: yes i do JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: so ur gonna come 2nite rite RONC495401: no JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: ew fine JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: n' u wonder y i wont go bac out wit u RONC495401: y JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: cuz u never want 2 hang out unless if u get sumthin outta it RONC495401: no it mot that i no that every time we hang out i can't stop kissing u and shit bc i love u RONC495401: but u love mat more so JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: so whut ill just move my head away datz all JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: itz not dat hard RONC495401: it not gunna work JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: yes it will cuz ill make it work RONC495401: who do u want more JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: my rentz wud yell at me if i got caught kissin u newayz cuz they think dat im still goin out wit matt JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: matt but i still want 2 chill wit u n' shit so dat shudnt stop us RONC495401: then no bc if u love him i just get out your head JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: no cuz itz like u walking out of my life all over again n' i fuckin hate dat shit RONC495401: itr not my fult your waiting for that stupid freshman JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: u only call him a stupid freshman cuz ur pissed off dat he got 2 me b4 u did RONC495401: peace JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: ewww JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: itz true...itz not my fault u wudnt take me bac when u had da chance RONC495401: how can i wen u want him insead of me i really love u with every thing JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: i kno u do but ron datz fucked up cuz even if u had another gurl i wud still hang out wit u i wudnt jus like walk out like ur doin now Auto response from RONC495401: I am away from my computer right now. RONC495401: u no me i would never have a nother gurl i want u JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: u went out wit dat chiq from shoprite so dont say never cuz datz not true Auto response from RONC495401: I am away from my computer right now. JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: so im guessin ur not comin 2morrow either? RONC495401: maybe JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: den y not 2nite if 2morrow is a maybe...whutz da fuckin difference JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: ???????? JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: or u cud not answer me as usual RONC495401: what JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: i said y not 2nite if tomorrow is a maybe RONC495401: bc JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: bc y RONC495401: bc i don't wanna JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: ew y not? JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: u wanted 2 before when i asked u JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: how can u love sum1 n' not hang out wit dem when u have da chance JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: if u dont want me in ur life nemore jus say it ( Conversation with Corey today... ) CrackerMack02: hey i no u hate me and dont want to talk to me but can u talk to me for 2night please JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: why should i CrackerMack02: cause im askin nicelu CrackerMack02: missy moved this mornin JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: thought she was moving tomorrow CrackerMack02: yea me 2 CrackerMack02: didnt even get to say goodbye JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: that's fucked up CrackerMack02: yea i no CrackerMack02: her mom is mad fucked up CrackerMack02: i actually cried today for the first time in like 4 years JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: you'd think missy would go to your house or something before she left since you basically live across the street CrackerMack02: no i had to go take the psats CrackerMack02: wasnt even home JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: 0o0o yeah true CrackerMack02: this fuckin sucks JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: yeah i feel bad CrackerMack02: wow u feel bad for me CrackerMack02: thats awsome JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: i feel bad for everyone except matt mcguinness CrackerMack02: do u no he fucked her lastnight JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: ewww CrackerMack02: i no right JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: why would missy go so low like that CrackerMack02: idk CrackerMack02: im fuckin grounded to so i cant doo shit CrackerMack02: im so bored JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: why you grounded? CrackerMack02: school shit CrackerMack02: bad progress report JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: o0o CrackerMack02: yea sucks JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: i'm failing 2 classes but for some reason it didn't say it on the progress report thank god CrackerMack02: lol yea ture JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: lol so i hear umm my lover boy (that sounded corny) im'd you last night CrackerMack02: yea nuttin big CrackerMack02: lol JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: what he say to you? CrackerMack02: why u askin my girlfriend weird shit CrackerMack02: and i was like idk ill stop JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: lol i find it funny that he's still protective over me even though we're not going out at the moment CrackerMack02: oh true CrackerMack02: u no u were the best sex ever CrackerMack02: seriously CrackerMack02: u did everything perfect JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: and how many other girls have you fucked cus sarah and megan told me i was your first CrackerMack02: one other CrackerMack02: but dont tell neone CrackerMack02: please CrackerMack02: it was on a cruise JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: i know you already told me CrackerMack02: oh CrackerMack02: then y u ask JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: just wanted to make sure CrackerMack02: oh CrackerMack02: i really wish i could have sex wit u again CrackerMack02: truthfully JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: i thought it was a mistake...and you're ashamed of fucking me anyway since you didn't want anyone to know about it CrackerMack02: it wasnt a mistake CrackerMack02: i just didnt want neone to no because of my rep im soo sorry pam i really am JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: mmhmm CrackerMack02: no really CrackerMack02: like seriously if u were at my house right now id fuck u again CrackerMack02: and make it soo much better JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: well you can guarantee it ain't happening again CrackerMack02: we should have sex again JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: or not CrackerMack02: pam u even sed it was great CrackerMack02: and i think it was to CrackerMack02: i no i fucked up on the after part but please understand bout it JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: normal guys would tell all their friends about it be all proud and shit but you, you wanted it a secret...after doing that with you i went through hell and i don't plan on doing that again and i know for a fact that matt won't go back out with me if i did fuck you again JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: i learned from my mistake CrackerMack02: why do we have to tell neone CrackerMack02: serioudly CrackerMack02: why CrackerMack02: we dont CrackerMack02: it could be a secret and u no it JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: i'm an open person i can't just keep my life a secret CrackerMack02: especially right now since ur not goin out wit matt CrackerMack02: its not ur life its a time of life CrackerMack02: not whole JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: idc corey i love matt and i'm not gonna fuck things up again i've been a fuck up all my life and i'm not gonna keep doing it CrackerMack02: u def have not been a fuck up ur whole like pam and u no that CrackerMack02: I fucked up once CrackerMack02: and im mad sorry CrackerMack02: about ron CrackerMack02: just give me another chance please CrackerMack02: and we can keep in a secret CrackerMack02: i got to be wit u once more CrackerMack02: please pam just give me that JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: and how would you know you barely ever talked to me in elementary and middle school you just started talking to me again last year JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: no you're lucky enough you had me once CrackerMack02: i no u werent a fuck up pam no1 was in elementary school idk bout middle CrackerMack02: but u really r a great person wen ur alone wit me CrackerMack02: just give me one more chance CrackerMack02: please JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: no corey JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: you had your chance and you fucked it up CrackerMack02: can i make it up 2 u JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: there is no way you can make it up to me CrackerMack02: look ur done wit ron cause of me and yes im sorry but now u got matt and NOT at the moment JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: idc i made a promise to matt that i'm not going to get involved with anybody cause we're on break right now and i'm going to keep my promise CrackerMack02: ok ok CrackerMack02: well seriously thanks for talkin to me again CrackerMack02: can we still talk CrackerMack02: ?? JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: only if you stop harassing me about this shit CrackerMack02: i wont harass u all the time CrackerMack02: just certain days CrackerMack02: lol CrackerMack02: just playin JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: mmhmm CrackerMack02: ok ttyl CrackerMack02: bye JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: byez CrackerMack02 signed off at 5:56:55 PM.