( 3:35pm )... Me, Jen, and Megan are supposed to be meeting up with this kid named Kevin that's 21 at the mall tonight... and I tried talking him into giving me alcohol but that didn't exactly work... I have to have the money up front or hook up with him... and he works for a fucking beer distributor so he can get the shit for free... how dick is that? Fuck that shit! This cute 19 year old DJ wants to chill with me but I don't know... I'm still attached to Matt and don't really want to meet anymore guys. Megan's moving tonight this sucks... we're not gonna see her for a really long ass time :( I was talking to Bavaro earlier today and he told me that Matt isn't speaking to him anymore either and that Matt stole money from him so he can't chill with Matt anymore... doesn't sound like Matt... but whatever I'm not taking sides in this situation. Guys now a days are all about getting ass and not wanting a relationship... man did I fucking blow that one... I had it all with Matt... grrrr ahhhh I fucking hate myself!!! Eww and fucking Jack had the nerve to call me on Ron's cell phone and bug me about how me and Sarah got the train tickets to New York... and he gave me a fucking attitude like it was gonna get him more information... fucking idiot... he's the one who blocked me first and yet he fucking calls me like what the fuck is it that god damn hard to fucking ask other people... hmm like people THAT WORK THERE! Ugh obviously he doesn't get the point that I never want to speak to him ever again!!! ( 6:00pm )... Wow yeah the 21 year old Kevin dude is fucking rediculous... he's getting a little too obsessed over me or something he won't stop bitching that I won't give him a chance... I haven't even fuckin met the dude yet and he wants to go out with me... what the fuck is up with that!?! Here's that convo... griz626262: well dont say hi JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: well ur being a dick griz626262: how JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: cuz u dont trust me yet u want to hang out n' be friends and shit JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: n' ur like every other typical guy by wantin a hook up out of it griz626262: No No NO, I always thought u were cute as hell, interested in u, want to see how u r, but no u wanna lead me on, hang out with me and say u love this other guy JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: im not leading you on kevin i wanted to chill with you as friends i told you i love my ex and that i dont want to get with another guy... is it a crime to be friends griz626262: well how do u knbow u wont like me and forget about the other guy JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: bcus i know it wont happen that shit just doesnt happen unless if im not interested any1 at the moment and i cant be with you anyway i already told you im not keeping it a secret cus my parents are strict with this shit griz626262: they wont have to know JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: ugh you dont get it griz626262: no ur not trying JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: i dont want a relationship thats a secret from my parents JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: why are you even talking about going out with me anyway... how do you even know that you will like me you havent met me yet griz626262: cuz i am not about looks, i know ur cute as hell already and u seem type that i like JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: u dont kno me tho JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: datz the thing JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: im not da same person online as i am in person griz626262: i do know i can take chances ur jsut shutting me down JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: u have to make this so difficult dont u griz626262: yep JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: i already told u i love my ex, im not having a secret relationship, i dont rush into a relationship anyway griz626262: it wont have to be a secret we can lie about my age JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: im not gonna do dat griz626262: see ur not trying JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: bcuz i dont want to lie i already lost enough trust from my parents JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: i have no way of explaining how i met you anyway and dont say the mall cus they know that random guys dont come up to me and i dont go up to them griz626262: say school through a friend, griz626262: i am a senior at east JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: i am not lying about your age JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: you can't even trust me enough to not run off with the alcohol and yet you want a relationship with me griz626262: well sorry i need to save money for my other car i bought i am sorry JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: see what i mean now ur just coming up with excuses cus i bet if i did hook up with you, you wud get it and not use it for a stupid car griz626262: r u serious , i love my cars, my truck is almost done and i jsut bought a 99 eclipse and its turing into a drag car, wow see u dont know me JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: a drag car... u drag race... see even i wouldn't be able to deal with that shit griz626262: no i dont drag race for like a sport, like drag race was the wrong term, i like speed, i live on the edge i like extreme stuff, paintball, skydiving, speed, jet skiiing , the whole nine yards, i need the thrill JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: and ur right i dont know you so idk how u expect me to get into a relationship with u JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: well the whole speeding thing i wudnt be able to handle cuz if i did like u i dont want to have to worry bout u gettin locked up or gettin urself killed datz 1 of da reasonz y i broke up wit 1 of my ex bfs griz626262: well thats why i got a truck too, so i dont speed JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: *rolls eyes* u didnt get dat but w/e griz626262: yes i did , ur jsut giving excuses not to like me, not to see me , not to touch me , nothing JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: BECAUSE I LOVE MY EX BOYFRIEND YOU WOULD UNDERSTAND ME IF YOU WERE IN LOVE TOO griz626262: wow w/e JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: see what i mean you cant even handle me anyway im like dis all da time usually worse I'M GONNA GO FUCKING INSANE IF PEOPLE JUST DON'T STOP PLAYING MIND GAMES WITH ME!!! ( 7:20pm )... Here's another convo with that fucker... griz626262: why r ur friends iming me JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: idk JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: lol u told her u didnt want to be with me... wow u remind me of dis 1 kid griz626262: ok wen did i ever say i wanted to be wuith u , i just wanna kno why u r makin excuses JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: u keep bring up going out with me...if u dont wanna be with me then dont bring up that shit JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: its that fuckin simple JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: i wasnt making up excuses JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: i was stating facts griz626262: ok griz626262: where ur freind go JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: idk i dont keep tabs on da grl griz626262: y not JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: umm cuz im not her mother griz626262 signed off at 6:33:53 PM. griz626262 signed on at 6:35:36 PM. griz626262: ight i will talk to u later i guess i need to run to the liquor store lol JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: ugh w/e liar griz626262: no i am going to the one in foodtown JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: so u said u were saving ur money griz626262: ok and JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: u lied to me griz626262: no i didnt , i dont have the money to put out for othere peopls stuff JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: ugh w/e peace out griz626262: u hate guys, i am sorry Auto response from JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: i fucking hate guys JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: shutup griz626262: why u hate guys JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: it was mainly directed to you JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: u said it urself u can get da shit free griz626262: yea when i am at work, i am not at work now , am i ? JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: UGH OMG JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: NVM griz626262: ok then so why woulkd i give it to u then, i am getting nothing in return, so why tell me why JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: omfg i told u i'd give u i wud pay u back when i can... and yet u tell me ur not like other guys yet u want a hook up for fuckin alcohol datz dick if it came to dat i wud go to my ex best friend griz626262: ok sorry then , can he get u beer and alcohol? JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: he was gonna steal vodka n' shit from his parents if i hooked up with him but im not fuckin hookin up with him griz626262: thats dirty, u gotta steal shit from ur parents wow , ok JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: hez 17 whut do u expect griz626262: ok sorry griz626262: go for ur ex friend then griz626262: i dunno wut to tell u JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: did i not just say dat im not gonna do shit wit him griz626262: ok ur not doing anyhitng with me either so JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: exactly u said u didnt want to do nethin... u said u werent like other guys... but u certainly havent proved dat 2 me griz626262: ok sorry griz626262: no but like u wont even try to find me a hook up, i dont care if its not u , but u dont even try to help out lol JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: who da fuck is gonna hook up wit sum1 they dont even fuckin kno griz626262: dunno u could try and introduce me to someone lol JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: i dont talk to any dirty cunt rags dat hook up wit ppl they dont kno griz626262: wow ur mean as hell ,. well wutever i gotta get shit for my party tomorrow night so w/e JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: oh a party aye dont have money to get shit for everyone else huh...wow u really suck at lying griz626262: do u realize i got freinds to who bring there own shit, who buy more alcohol JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: i think ur jus sayin dis shit 2 piss me da fuck off griz626262: wut do i care how u react, reguardless i am still getting stuff for myself JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: peace out griz626262: have fun tomorrow night with soda lolol JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: will do griz626262 signed off at 7:10:09 PM. I blocked his ass he was pissing me the fuck off. ( 10:25pm )... I was on the phone with Megan earlier... and just now I got off the phone with Alicia... she's all excited cause her boyfriend is going to her New Year's Eve party... it's gonna be their 7 month anniversary on January 5th... wow I wish me and Matt could last that long :( Jen was supposed to call me back but she never did, like always. Hopefully next year will be a better year for me, cause this year was the worst yet. The only good thing about this year was Matt coming into my life. Tomorrow is gonna be so lonely... I think both my parents are working, Jen is going to a party with her boyfriend, Alicia is gonna be at her party with her boyfriend, Megan probably won't be here anymore, obviously I'm still not talking to Sarah, Corey, or the Brick crew... and Matt isn't talking to me anymore... I miss him so much :'(