[*246*] Sometimes I Wonder

Feeling: schizophrenic
Well yesterday me and Mike went out to dinner with Ron Narucki and his girlfriend and obviously Mike's dad... that was cool. We were making fun of all the chincs. Ron seems like a cool kid after all. He was in some of my classes the previous years. Went back to Mike's house... he wound up falling asleep so I had to wake him up to take me home. He refused to get up so I tried annoying the shit out of him and he kept telling me if I didn't stop he was gonna hurt me and that I'm being really annoying. So I continued cus I was already late. And then out of no where he grabs ahold of me and gets on top of me. And he tries to go back to sleep, so I bit him. Then he bugged out and held my head down and threw back his arm about to hit me. He stopped himself though. He got off me saying "you're lucky you're not a guy cus I would've snapped your neck." So I pulled away from him and I was putting on my shoes and he was like "what's wrong?" and I didn't say anything. Then I looked at him and he's like "babe what's wrong you're about to cry" and I was like "nothing" and he's like "tell me" and I started crying on his shoulders and I was like "I just got scared that's all"... I had flashbacks of when one of my ex's beat the shit out of me. So then he started apologizing saying he would never hit me. He took me home and we're at my door and he kept apologizing saying that he didn't mean to scare me and said that he loves me, etc. He apologized again online before he went to bed. And I'm talking to him right now... he doesn't remember not one fuckin thing that happened last night. He said he was still half asleep. I don't know sounds fishy to me, I don't think someone can be that aware of what's going on in their sleep like that, but whatever, it's over and done with. I'm about to go to his house soon cus he's sick so I'm gonna go take care of him. I'll update later. I love you so much Mike! 6 days until 3 months.
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