So much drama...it just never fucking ends I swear! Matt's pissed at me cause I was kidding around about him trying to kill himself...he's such a fucking hypocrite cause he made fun of me also but he did it worse than how I did it! I just want to kill so many people it's not even funny. Frankie is one of them. Every girl that Matt speaks to I wanna kill. Fucked up how he'll talk to my friends but he won't talk to me. Hell he should go out with them he seems to like them better than me. Ron came over Saturday morning and woke my ass up. And yeah we fucked...what else is new lol. Megan came over later on and slept over. Jen came over too. They beat up on me...I still have the bruises and shit lol. Frankie started so much shit with me last night it's not even fucking funny...I swear that kid better pray to God I never see him again cause if I do I will fucking slit his throat open. ( Conversation with Frankie... ) FCARGO 411: hey JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: hi FCARGO 411: whats up JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: nm chillen wit megan JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: u? FCARGO 411: cool nm JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: were u with ron last night? FCARGO 411: yep FCARGO 411: y JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: do u know if he saw my text messages? FCARGO 411: no idea FCARGO 411: y what they say JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: i asked him where he was and why you guys don't stop by when your around the neighborhood nemore FCARGO 411: cuz we were on a strict plan for the day lol JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: jack told me it's cus im boring but oh well i dont care FCARGO 411: dnt listen to jack lol JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: mmhmm FCARGO 411: no yesterday first we were all cleanign our leaves at our houses ron hada clean inside afgter that we went to wendys came back to rons so he cood get money nd stuff then went to my house to kill a little time then went to rons couzins then went to look at hot rods then went to pjs dads to sleep there JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: mmk FCARGO 411: yeh JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: jack told me you guys were in my neighborhood though FCARGO 411: no we werent FCARGO 411: hes an idiot JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: oh FCARGO 411: we were by the wawa on like friday i think.. JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: did you guys go to burger king last night? FCARGO 411: yeah JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: k FCARGO 411: on our way back from rons cuzins JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: k FCARGO 411: yeh JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: so what you do today FCARGO 411: eh stayed at petes watched some porno nd =watched football FCARGO 411: thats about it JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: lol oh...did you say anything to ron about him lying to you where he was yesterday morning lol? FCARGO 411: no JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: k JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: lol ron wanted me to skip 7th n' 8th period on friday to go to his house and he got mad cus i said no he was like "oh but you can skip with matt though right" and i was like "that's completely different that was during the pep rally when there was no way of me getting caught" and matt was like buggin out saying i better not skip to go to ron's lol FCARGO 411: lol FCARGO 411: i hate matt JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: lol why? you don't even know him FCARGO 411: i no lol but all the stories i hear sound likes a dick FCARGO 411: nd they all want me to beat his as FCARGO 411: ass* JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: that's cus their too pussy to do it themselves...matt is definitely not someone anybody really wants to mess with FCARGO 411: i dnt give a shit if he plays with knives i will fuckin pop is kneecap out of the back of his leg hes pulls a knife on me JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: well you don't have a reason to mess with him anyway FCARGO 411: true but if he ever fucks with ronnie jack doug ryan or pj or neone liekl that i do have a reason FCARGO 411: nd if he uses knives obviously hes a pussy because only pussy fight with weapons JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: matt has every right to mess with ron cus ron tried getting with me so many times when i was going out with matt JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: then i guess ron is a pussy too cus he was gonna use a bat FCARGO 411: i never sed he wasnt a pussy lol FCARGO 411: btu hes still ym friend FCARGO 411: my* JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: and it's not your fight FCARGO 411: if ne of them ask me to fight him trust me i will make it my buisness if i want JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: that's dick then...and i wouldn't let you anyway FCARGO 411: woodnt let me? JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: you heard me FCARGO 411: id just find him wen hes nto with u then beat his ass JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: you don't even know where the fuck he lives genius and if you ever touched him i'd fucking stab you myself JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: i just love it how brick assholes have to get involved in other people's business FCARGO 411: ud stab me woo hoo i guess u no where i live now JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: no but i'd stab you if you came over with ronnie again JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: i have my ways of finding out where you live JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: you are just like the rest of them FCARGO 411: idc lol JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: fuck you peace FCARGO 411 signed off at 7:38:59 PM. FCARGO 411: hey there JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: fuck off FCARGO 411: y? FCARGO 411: do u hate me now JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: why do you fucking think JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: yeah FCARGO 411: y tho i was just kiddin before JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: KIDDING!?! you were definitely not fucking kidding JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: i don't put up with shit like that FCARGO 411: lol yeah yur right FCARGO 411: later JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: douche bag JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: peace FCARGO 411: i guess this means u never wanna talk to me agen or shood i just give u a lil time JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: hmm maybe you can answer your own question since i hope i see you again so i can fucking slit your throat open FCARGO 411: duz that mean u liek hate me FCARGO 411: im sorry JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: dat was a stupid question FCARGO 411: well fine be that way just no im sorry but i guess that just duznt matter to u nemore duz it well fine good... bye.. to a old frend JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: FRIEND!?! apparently you don't know what the fuck a friend is FCARGO 411: well i thought u were my frend u sed u were JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: yeah until you decided to fucking get involved in something that doesn't involve you FCARGO 411: but they told me to JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: so fucking what! it's ron's fight let him handle it, it's not your fucking place FCARGO 411: he told me to make matthew pay his dues JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: PAY HIS DUES FOR WHAT PROTECTING WHAT'S HIS FCARGO 411: look ok i didnt wanna tell u this but ron is in the process of find where matt is because he heard about u 2 or sumthing liek that and ron sed yur his JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: ron wont do shit JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: he doesnt wanna get arrested FCARGO 411: he sed hes just gunna run matt over JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: good let him try to run him over cus i'll be standing right beside him FCARGO 411: well wtf r u gunna b wit matt 24 7 u dnt even no wen ronnie is comen JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: he has no way of finding out where matt lives JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: i usually am with matt at all times FCARGO 411: he will find out where ron is like a snkae FCARGO 411: a motha fuckin predator JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: wtf r u talkin bout FCARGO 411: ron will find out wen yur not there and where he lives nd ron will do his work JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: yeah right like that's ever going to happen JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: ron is on fucking crack if he thinks i'm his JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: IM SINGLE I DON'T BELONG TO ANYBODY FCARGO 411: ok i thought u sed up there yur matts? JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: OMG PAY ATTENTION JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: ron was trying to get with me when i was going out with matt...so matt threatened ron protecting what is his JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: get it now FCARGO 411: alright goodnight sweetdreams im gunna go to bed now good luck with yur b/fs JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: fuck you FCARGO 411: what do u mean JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: i fucking hate all of you FCARGO 411: well alright if u feel that way fine but seeya JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: peace FCARGO 411 signed off at 10:06:54 PM. ( Conversation with Ronny...) JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS SHIT RONC495401: what JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: FCARGO 411: look ok i didnt wanna tell u this but ron is in the process of find where matt is because he heard about u 2 or sumthing liek that and ron sed yur his RONC495401: JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: ? RONC495401: h/o i can't read it don't type RONC495401: wen was this JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: 10 minutes aog JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: IF ANY OF YOU FUCKING TOUCH MATT I SWEAR TO GOD ILL KILL ALL OF YOU RONC495401: i never said any thing like that JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: WHY THE FUCK WOULD HE MAKE SOMETHING UP LIKE THAT JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: frankie told me you were going to find out where matt lives and run him over with your fucking car RONC495401: no JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: well fucking whatever i swear to god this is a warning any of you touch him your gonna have to answer to me JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: why the fuck do you hang out with these douche bags...how can you fucking call them friends JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: ever think about having friends that don't backstab you every day RONC495401: i will talk to frankie tommorrow JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: you can bring him over and my friend will tell him tomorrow RONC495401: who JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: MY KNIFE RONC495401: i heard what u gunna do with corey JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: ARE YOU KIDDING ME THAT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH WHAT WERE TALKING ABOUT RIGHT NOW JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: DONT GO CHANGING THE FUCKIN SUBJECT JeRzYzBaByGuRl4L: you have no fucking idea how pissed off i am right now i'm like literally shaking cus i need to hit something RONC495401 signed off at 10:29:28 PM. Yeah I definitely wasn't too happy last night...I was on the phone with Jen and I was like screaming in her ear I was so pissed off. I fucking hate people they should all die. I swear to God one of these days I'm gonna wind up going to school with some sort of weapon and it's gonna turn into another Columbine High incident. I'm gonna kill everybody lol. I seriously don't know what to do anymore. I'm so lost and confused. I really don't understand why I'm still waiting for Matt...it's obvious that we're not gonna get back together...even if we were to, it wouldn't matter...it's not gonna be like how it used to...he's not gonna treat me any different from how he is now. Everything changed when we broke up. It's never going to be the same. It hurts more and more each day just knowing that. It must've been something I did for him to leave me...for him not coming back. It's so hard to hold on to go on each day living like this. I don't want to be here anymore...I just want the pain to end.