I'm sure I could leave this well enough alone, have you all know me through imagery rather than my actions or the degree of my character, but there's too much time and too many unfinished text documents on me to put you into that mess. It's been a long time since I've written anything over 10 words that wasn't to be due for some sort of grade. Grade, critique, whatever you call it, I don't like it. I'd rather my friends, those who I love and trust, tell me who I am. Not some PhD with a cat who cant spend his time reading me through because I'm 1/1000. To my friends, I'm 1000/1. And the reciprocal is reciprocated. Now that school is on hiatus, it's time to sit down and find me again. As my over sentimental and often times completely unintelligible father might say it's time for me to "find my smile". I've had good times, of course. But nothing short of a good sunset and a hot coffee can make me smile nowadays. This isn't a pity trip, it's the solid truth. There are one or two names on my caller ID that really life me up, too, but that was ages ago since that's happened. So for now it's 'Me' time. I have money, one of the perks of a generous dad and a generous scholarship. I have time. Lord knows that as winter shortens the days it lightens them too. I've decided on a couple of tactics: A) Give to Get. I'm not going to be frugal with my money this season. I'll be ok without it. But it is Christmas after all. I'm going to buy gifts for everyone I love and everyone that loves me. B) I'm going to take things a little less seriously. I'm still studious, don't get me wrong, but Drama was better left for high school. Things will work out, they always have and they always will. C) When all else fails, I'm going to get a cup of coffee and watch the sunset. I'm telling you, it's that easy. If it isn't then I'm determined to make it so. I mean if life isn't what we make it, then I want to make it what we make it. Change is not a threat but a utensil. Sorry. I went to get juice. I'm sure you didn’t notice, you're reading this all at once. But know that juice was attained. I almost started this little tidbit off with lyrics of the song I was listening to, btw, but I decided instead to start it off with lyrics of the song I'm living. I mean sure they don't rhyme, and the tempo is a little iffy. But that's exactly how it's meant to be heard. Keep living life, because I plan to keep writing it. .Steve