I am a very introspective person. I noticed that today. I "need" a lot. Whats left to lose? I've done enough. And if I fail well then I fail but I gave it a shot. And these last three years, I know they've been hard, but now its time to get out of the desert and into the sun...even if its alone I heard today from a friend that if we had been racing to date our respective crushes, she'd have won. I hate losing, but some things are not gonna change it seems. Without Wax -JBN