In an uplifting and hopeful manner, and because a certain friend wishes me to update, i'm going to tell you all what it's like to keep my cup half full. During the average day I sometimes find myself filled with nearly paralysing anxiety when confronted with public display or even something like dealing with a large crowd. (*Editors note: Maybe thats why he became a Techie and not an actor, according to many he would have done well in the latter). I tend to constantly second guess other people intentions, for one reason or another. It's not a trust issue but I guess when I know how easy it is to lie convincingly it gets me a little paranoid. I also tend to sort of stutter and mumble a lot. Most of you may seem surprised. I admit, when in the company of friends i'm the funny man. When around available females i'm Mr. Suave. But any other time i'm sort of a mess. I have a keenly analytical mind. I slice and dice all conversations, I order things in my mind, I thrive on symmetry. A little dose of OCD for ya. But in the end of the day, if I can sit down and have a drink and be calm and comfortable, then it's been a good day. I try not to let my paranoia get the best of me though, which could turn into a little bit of self turmoil. I need to go to a flippin shrink. Wow, could you imagine? Not only having someone listen to everything you say but also being able to tell them anything and everything in complete honesty. I havent been 100% honest with anyone ever. At least not in the last 5 years. I'm sure some of you already have that though. .Steve