I'm so stupid, I don't get how someone can be this stupid. I think of all the things I have done in the past, and realize how fucking stupid I am. Everyday, there is something that makes me even stupider than I already am, and I try to act like its no big deal by just laughing it off, but I truely feel hurt by it. I hate the way I am, how I can get embarassed so easily, how shy I am, how stupid I am. Just everything about me, I hate it. The things I do...ugh...god.
Well, today was pretty good. I went to Jazz band this morning, it was fun. Then I got to see him again after 2nd peirod! Finally I get to see you! Woo! It's so pathetic, Zach has to drag me away from the 7th grade hallway every day.
The more I'm with my friends, the more I get to hate them. Like today, I was just there like everyday after 3d peirod, talking to Greg, and Tara at lunch hit me, and I was like 'What the fuck was that for' and she was like 'For ever knowing Greg'. I don't get what the fuck her problem was, but whatever.
I don't know what to think of them anymore. I truely don't.
Tennis was fun, even though we lost. It was still cool, because I got to play with Greg!
God, I suck at tennis so bad. It's pathetic. Like today, I only hit the ball like 2 times, and all the other times I hit the ball it was out or I just didn't hit it at all. Pathetic...
I'm such a horrible friend.
Sleep. I want to stay in bed all through out the day, no one bother me. I don't wanna open my eyes. I'll lie here in my room. I have no need to see. No one wake me I just want to stay in bed. No one move me I just want to lie right here, right in my warm bed. 'cause I don't want to see tomorrow. Here I am so happy, so just leave me be. I just want to stay. I do not bother you so don't you touch me. Get the fuck away! No one wake me I just want to stay in bed. No one move me I just want to lie right here, right in my warm bed. 'cause I don't want to see tomorrow. 1,2,3,4. No one wake me I just want to stay in bed. No one move me I just want to lie right here, right in my warm bed. 'cause I don't want to see tomorrow.
-Ny-Quil
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