Today sucked. It should have been great though...but it wasn't. I had to goto a stupid ochrastra field trip, and I'll have to goto anouther one tomorrow. Then I don't know. I just seemed like...I wasn't being myself the whole time I was with all of them at the library. Then I also got Frankie and myself kicked out of the library. Mmmm....I hate this. The only good part of the day was seeing you. But...thats always the best part of all my days.
I'm so bored. And I'm still not feeling right. I haven't felt right in about a week and a half. I don't know why. Maybe it's because everyone around me is upset. Maybe it's because I haven't really talked to Tara in a long time. Maybe it's because I have no idea. Maybe it's because I'm alone. I hate it. I hate feeling like this.
So I got two books today. The Earth, My Butt, And Other BIG Round Things, which is about an over weight girl who has problems. And anouther book that Greg picked out called Stoner & Spaz. He said it was good. So...that's good.
I don't know what to talk about. Everything is weird. Everyone around me is acting weird. Everything is just...not right. Maybe it's just me.
I envy how pretty she is. She's so beautiful. I love her hair. Something about it today made it look...I don't know..but it was good.
God. I hate this. I don't want to go. I don't want to go....
Bend me break me
love me hate me
touch me want me
lose me judge me
i don't care as long as i feel something
Push me pull me
change me crave me
find me hide me
crush me try me
i don't care as long as i feel something real
Because you deserve so much, and I'm sorry that everyone seems to be hurting right now. I dotn knwo what is happeneing...everyeone seems to be upset.
I hope you and tara talk. And I hope you feel better.
I'm always here for you. If you need anything
It is VERY good.