I REMEMBER! I remember the day we first meet!!! It was May 3d. Did you remember that? Today was good, I guess. I got to be with him so ya...It was good. Hmm...Today was a half day, nothing really happened. I went to tennis practise...the last practise we'll have. It was inside since it was raining. I swear...something was up with Catie. She was like high or something. She was chasing me around the gym and when I was going to hit the ball she was like 'WHY ARE YOU RUNNING FROM ME?!' lol...well, this is tennis, Catie...you have to return the ball....and she kept hitting me in the ass with her racket. After tennis I went to second peirod [computer class]. Nothing really happened in there. We typed for a bit then we watched a movie. Third peirod [ochrastra] we went to the gym for a convo thing. Forth peirod, we have Miss Linheart back, I'm actually kind of glad. Miss Ash was just...ugh...I don't know. She was okay...I guess. Then we skiped 5th went to 6th [math] and all we did was do our homework, but instead I did my Spanish homework. Then English which we just took a DOL quiz. Social Studies was so fucking boring. Then we went to 5th [lunch]it was okay. I actually bought lunch today. Uhm....then we went to 1st [Science] and that class just went by fast. And that was it about my day...fun. I'm so sorry. I'm oh sososososo sorry. I wish I could have just said what I wanted to do, but I didn't know what to do. Sorry, I love you so much. Maybe we can do something this weekend. I need to ask my grandma to buy some Coke... Tara wasn't at school today. It felt weird without her. It just wasn't the same... Sunday was just so perfect. That's all I can think about. Being with you. And just.......I don't know. It was so perfect, so awesome. The best day I ever had. I miss it. For some reason....I want to start this day all over again. I feel like I did so many things wrong. I wish there was a rewind and fast forward button on life. Oh fucking well. Edit: I was talking to my grandma today. It was actually a real conversation...I guess. We really haven't had one in a while. She was like 'You've really fallen for him, haven't you?' and I was like 'Yea..' and she was like 'I can tell.' and I was like 'Oh?' and she was like 'Yea, you can tell by the way you look at him and how he makes you so happy'. It was a conversation where...I didn't end up getting mad at her. Weird. Something just doesn't feel right. It's like...we can't talk to eachother today? I don't know. Just something is wrong. I just don't know what. It's weird. I don't like it. We have these huge silences. I wish we didn't. You don't know who I am so, you can not get close to me, and I don't know who you are, so, just leave me alone. I know you can't believe the anxiety you're causing me, and I know you can't believe your fake copassion I don't need. Get away from me, you're standing too close. Keep your hands off of me. Keep away from me, just leave me alone, who said you could touch me anyway? Don't try to rub my shoulders, and don't try to hold my hand. Don't try to give me a fucking hug. You crawl on me as if I were your very best of friends. I don't even know your name. Get away from me, you're standing too close. Keep your hands off of me. Keep away from me, Just leave me alone. Who said you could touch me anyway? 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8. Ah! -Who Said You Could Touch Me?