"It just takes some time Little girl, you're in the middle of the ride Ev'rything, ev'rything'll be just fine Ev'rything, ev'rything'll be all right, all right?" "The Middle" -- Jimmy Eat World So, anyways, Mrs. Murray made me a little fussy today. I went in to tell her I had some bad news, that I couldn't compete in Districts today because of a MEAP week curfew laid down by my parents. Now, going to Districts would've made a third hectic, late night I would've had to deal with. I called my mom, and she said the same thing: no more late nights this week. I told her, and she played the guilt trump: I would be costing the school money to drop, I would be costing them more money to pay a judge that didn't get paid because ONE PERSON dropped, and that I was going to let down the team and make them look bad. Nothing against the team; I love each and every one of them! We're a family, as it should be. I asked all of them if it was alright I wasn't going, and they all said it would be fine. I don't feel guilty. I shouldn't. Anyway, I'm done ranting, for now. Carla is at a concert, and I've finished my homework (finally) and I'm somewhat lonely. Only marginally, though, because I like writing in these journals. Oh, and Rachel: If I was being a dick, well, that's the way it goes, isn't it. I can't help that we're both stubborn, so understand that I don't mean to one-up you or anything. I just feel you need to be told, and telling someone firmly what you believe is much different than being too sympathetic. you said it yourself; I needed to be less of a doormat. If you don't like me acting this way, I'm sorry. I'm not going to let my views and suggestions be brushed aside because they don't coincide with yours. I apologize for being so harsh. I felt pretty mad, and I do act rashly. That's me. Friends don't base relationships off of perfection, we do it because there are things we love and things we hate. Easy enough. So, with that said, I'm finished. We're still friends; don't think we're not. I'm just done until things cool down a bit for you. You don't listen when you're stressed, so I'm going to keep my mouth shut. All others, I'm finished for the night.