Things I love: Carla My eyes My bass The sound of a bass guitar with no distortion Screaming highs and growling lows...in music. Dungeons and Dragons days, even when nothing gets done. My friendships that mean something Talking for hours at night Staying up for days and finally falling sleep because I'm so exhausted. I don't do that much anymore. This song. Most songs by Nobuo. Most songs by the guy who did MGS2 and 3 soundtracks. The piano The string section Johnny Depp's acting ability. Things I hate: Hypocrites Liars Thieves Closed-minded philosophers People who are unwilling to accept me because I'm not christian People who say I can't have faith because I'm not christian People who say I'll amount to nothing because I'm not christian. Religious folk who try to get me into their religion -- I'll seek on my own. People who don't believe I can be straightedge. People who don't even know what that is, but judge me anyway. Taxes Much of society People who say I'll never make any music worth hearing because I have no training I have: Auburn hair Grey eyes A beard Freckles A four pack when I don't eat A wonderful woman in my life An amazing amount of luck because of that Strong emotion All my worldly possessions that mean nothing Bipolar Disorder Musical talent, but no training Powerful love Powerful hate Scars High distrust Incredible faith (once I overcome the distrust) Loyalty Friendship Desire Wants Needs a Natalie Goldberg book I fell in love with. Happiness Sadness Joy Sorrow. Good Some evil :) I don't have: A curse A hatred for any one person Pills for my head Razors for my arm (I stopped long ago) A pen with enough ink to write what I think A hand to hold A pot to piss in A stone in the hand, nor a bird in the bush any more quirky analogies to mess up :) "A big fine car" A lot of experience I want: To get married to have kids to be financially sound but not rich to be modest if I am rich to give to charity to be clean (drug and alcohol free) to keep everyone happy to be satisfied to love to not hate to be the best man I can for my family and friends to be loved and love in return to make music to make lovely music to make amazingly lovely music to make some other kind of music, but I ran out of useful adjectives in mid thought To have a job I love to finish school to finally please my parents to be cured to die happily to want nothing. I need: to be loved to be held to be told when I'm messing up to be disciplined sometimes to forgive to trust