Carla broke up with me. I feel terrible about it for a number of reasons: She's alone now, and since Will passed, she's alone at a time when I promised I would be there. My love is going to be wasted, because I'm not about to stop loving her. I know everyone is going to tell me to move on, but I don't care. I'd rather love her and never anyone else rather than forget. I don't know how to end conversations, since I can no longer say that I love her, even though I do absolutely and totally. I'm happy because hopefully she'll learn to be happy and then things will get better. I hope she comes back. I know I sound stupid, but I really pray to god that she comes back to me. I feel lousy. I'm trying to stay strong for her though, so maybe she'll see that I can be better. I hope she comes back. I doubt that she will, so I guess my love with be wasted. But in the end, I'd rather "waste" it on her than give it to someone else.