I've come to a conclusion. I'm going to seclude myself. I'm going into pretty deep self-meditation. I'm starting to become the person I hate, the one who does stupid stuff like I've done previously and who is quite the hypocrite. I'm talking about this Monica situation. I respect her for her choice. I like Steve, and I don't know Austin. There. Those last four words are all I needed to say: "I don't know him." I can't judge based upon what I have no knowledge of. I guess the only thing I can say is that if she's happy, I'm happy. I've not spoken to her in a long time. As for this whole not getting work done thing, we have to think about most 17 year olds -- when we see a chance to have a diversion, don't we all take it? I see someone I know at work, I'll gladly take some time to chat. It is no different. I'm sorry for those of you who've had grievances about it, but I think this is for the best. Monica is learning. I understand what is happening, and she doesn't need to explain herself to me to get my support. Monica isn't stupid. She isn't going to go and get herself pregnant. If she does, then she must've known it would happen -- she doesn't think you get it from holding hands these days. Face it - Monica has a life. It's not centered around us, her friends. It's centered around who it should be -- herself. We should all think about ourselves; we're selfish creatures, y'know. I fully back her in this endeavour, and I hope you're all genial enough to do the same. *sigh* i suppose I should take back what I said about this lakeside thing. Leaving that in my past as a righteous trait certainly isn't helping me. I'm sorry for what I did then. I... no. I took responsibility for that. It was my idea. You all know that. I came right out and told those of you whom it mattered to or pertained to. but I guess I'm done. I'm not gonna worry about how people live their lives. A conversation with a very special someone about her choices in college made me realise that loving someone doesn't mean you stop them from living his/her life. It means that you support them whenever they do anything, whether the outcome is good or bad. I apologise to everyone. I haven't been that great of a friend.