Listening to: Three Days Grace "I Hate Everything About You"
Feeling: balanced
"When a man forgets what love is, well
That's when he forgets that hell is hell.
If he has forsaken the world, then
He's transcending the forgiveness of men."
"The Ballad of a Thin Man" -- Bob Dylan
The music for today was violent because I was working out. I did a lot of crunches, and benched, so typing is fun :). I need loud music, heavy guitar riffs, and lots of screaming/angst for working out. I was listening to this song doing crunches, and whenever the chorus comes up I do my endurance workout (holding my muscles tensed with weight), then during verses I either take a break or do reps.
Ok, so yesterday was fun, but there were some things that weren't, like Rachel's moodiness. But we can't get along for 5 minutes; we both agree on this and said it at the same time! hahaha. Otherwise, I had a incredibly great time with Carla, talking, tickling, snoozing, and watching movies. Oh, Carla, about the falling asleep thing: It's fine, because I saw that you were becoming more comfortable with me, which made me happy. I was too busy watching the movie to wonder :). I'm glad you feel protected and not awkward.
I do need to address something: Ben! I'm sorry about the extra wheel feelings. Next time, we'll invite LeAnne, and tell her parents it is a "Spring Break" party, with "no boys" or "few males" or something to that effect :). I need to give you a little more credit than I think I have; you went through something very stressing, and I need to apologize for being a douche. I extend the olive branch.
Monday, I'll sit by you, we'll talk, make plans for SB, etc. etc. All that happy shit.
I'm off to work out some more; my abs are feeling like they still have some energy, and I want a six pack by summer. I already have four :D!
Seeya!
thanks for the kind words. i dont no about anything ne more. i just wish i could let go of things and no everythings going to be ok. anyway thanks
ben