Why the fuck am I still here?

by fadedxdreams
Listening to: The Used-Bulimic
Feeling: mellow
haha yesterday I got called down to the office.. I got a lab-makeup today .. acedemic study hall monday and inschool possibly tomorrow ..god that school is gay ..jeez you refuse to do something and you skip a class and get bitched at haha ohh well .. and today nothing new happened ..I found a strange attraction to someone in mi clase de espanol .. his name .. is *gulp* Ben ..ehhh lol -Ive been sitting here looking through peoples infos ..i wanna put some stuff in here that I think is interesting .. getten sum sleep the reslats are oways perfick but thats old news nicole u the one i do adoor;-):-D marijuana!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!marijuana, i do got love for u think about!!!!!!!! -Thats jons info ♥ ..hmm that should say Megan instead of Nicole ~light that shit hit that shit pass that shit~ Tony:-*:-*i love you so much&i never wanna lose you, u mean everything to me --idk to me that kid seems gay* everyOne`z qOnna . h U r T . u sOoner .Or. later u jst have * tO--deciide [whOs] *wOrth* gOiin -- thrOuqh -- the [ p a ii n ] --- ¤ItS TrUlY A MiRaClE¤ --» h0w u CaN JuSt«-- ¦-×WaLk By *n* SaY NotHiN n sTilL×-¦ ··÷¤|[PuT A SmIlE On My FaCe]|¤÷·· 420...whats that time mean..? ;-)-yay 4:20 :) Amsterdam Wrestling [silence] stop and hit the bong like cheech and chong Its time to not give a shit:-D " i used to believe in forever, but forever's too good to be true."_ Winnie the Pooh wanna see you happy... ... even if it`s not wit me Un-cry these tears I cried so many nights Un-break my heart...x|3 x the hardest thing in the [[ W o R L d ]] o o is to watch the person you L o V e x x LoVe someone else o I WiSh...* i wish i waS eiGht aGaiN c u z n0thiN maTteReD a N d aLL hE haDda do waS [ taGg ] me fOr mE t0 be [[ i T ]]
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My grandparents live like a couple thousand miles away but I HAVE to see them every summer(the entire summer as in two whole months, dear god) and every other christmas and if my grandma can, she'll even try to make me come during spring break. i cant shop with that woman either. shes like THATS too TIGHT. no, cant wear that, no no no. and so on. SO OBNOXIOUS. my grandpa is cool though. MAYBE one day i'll appreciate them..MAYBE.
haha yeah. Warped was an awesome time. I met Hidden in Plain View, Billy Talent, and Allister. They were soooo cool.

It was the best day of my life haha.
I can't wait to go next year.
And I will go.
If I have to walk haha.

Catch you later :)
haha. my grandma likes to buy me weird looking clothes and i have to pretend i like them then they collect lint in one of my drawers. much likes your grandma-picked clothes do. Grandparents are supposed to sit in rocking chairs, be quiet, give good advice, and bake cookies everyday!!!

what went wrong here?!?!

My grandma cooks alot but the rocking chair is MIA.

She likes to buy me things. and give me money. Which is sorta cool except its sorta like she tries to buy my love.

sheesh. old people these days.
my grandma and all her little rich friends cook alot and throw lots of parties so of course ive always gotta go. and they like to pinch cheeks and make comments about how much you've grown, how pretty youve gotten(god like i was ugly before or something, eh?!?!?) or tell you stories about "oh when you were little, bout this tall you would..." like i care what i did when i was a demon child.
and even crazier when they introduce me to people the supposedly knew me when i was a baby or a little bit older than that and expect me to remember them. jesus people! they are like remember ms. so-n-so you met her when you were about 3. god, are you for serious? and my grandma, before we go in, is like i want you to be on your best behavior..like im some wild ape child and i randomly stab people with sporks. please, ive got self control. yea!
im her favoritesetsetstsest grand child. sorta sucks. like my other cousins whom ive never met..they just send letters occasionally but im like numero uno. god she treats me like her own child..which sucks because she didnt do a good job with my dad so i think shes trying to make up for it and make me perfect.
thats what I thought I would be like!

And then I went to HIPVs merch booth and Rob was standing there and I like froze up. But I managed to tell my friend who he was and she like threw me at him and I got a picture with him and then him and Chris signed my shirt.

Billy Talent Ben layed his head on my shoulder and I just about passed out on the spot.

Allister was the last one I met and I met the drummer and I actually could hold convo with him
hiii!

mmm. You shouldn't just put people on ur friends list.

mmm..

- ur layout has so much writingggg ahhh
+ you love me
- marijuana is bad!
+ you love me
+ you commented

haha. Ima keep you.
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haha its this Candian band Gob.
They're really good.
All their videos are really funny haha

I found the pic on their website.

And I'm not THAT cool. I'll trade anyday ;)