eh.
I didnt even know that was a mood.
Last night was really shitty.
I couldnt go tanning.
I got in a fight with my mom.
Over stupid things.
and I was really thinking last night,
and I came to a decent conclusion.
I want Nigel.
[ as bad as he makes me feel. ]
he's the only one I want.
there are too many excess people in my life.
& I dont need that right now.
I want Nigel back.
=(
and as far as the excess people go,
I want to see Kyle & Amy in the hallway & say that i'm happy for them and think they're cute together.
If I see them hold hands I dont want to get jealous.
and Mike,
I want to see him & listen to him talk about how much we're going to hang out and everything we will do
and it will all be just talk
nothing would have ever happened.
And Cj,
I wish he was out of my life like he was.
I was doing perfectly fine until he came back.
And Nick,
I dont want FWBS.
Im afraid of commitment but FWBS makes me feel like shit, mostly.
I just want Nigel.
He's the only thing I care about.
everyday & everynight.
I think about him constantly.
I've never, ever felt this way before.
But he treats me like dirt.
He used to be so sweet, then bam.
he's kingdick.
=(
I think it's something I did.
I have no idea where I went wrong.
I'm just trying right now.
I'm not going to give up.
I believe in this so much.
I have no idea what to do.
I just .. love him.
i wouldnt want rachel to talk to him if i was you. but thats me.
im going with choice three too. i cant go with them. ill feel..jealous.