aloof:
Adjective
Distant physically or emotionally; reserved and remote
that works for me.
a lot has been happening.
& I really cant keep up.
and i'm confused.
and I cant sleep & I want to cry.
too late ..
K.
too many boys in my life.
too many situations.
Nigel.
I like him so much, he means so much to me.
But he treats me like shit.
i've been in denial for so long.
I talked myself into thinking he cared.
He says he does, but a lot of people say things just to hear themselves talk.
He's leaving oh so soon.
and i'm going to miss him, and its going to tear me apart.
I want just once, for him to feel like shit.
But I cant do it, I dont want to see him hurt.
because when he's hurt then I hurt.
and I dont want either of us to hurt.
UGH.
I cant even explain everything thats going through my head right now about him.
KYLE.
I dont even know how I feel about this kid.
I think it's one of those spur of the moment things when I see him.
it's like.
Hi, i like you.
But nothing more, it's not like he's on my mind 24.7 like Nigel.
MIKE.
Let's not go there.
& Cj.
wants to be FWBz again.
but I dont want to set myself up for that.
But maybe I could do it.
but I dont know if im strong enough.
Consideration x10.
I should be sleeping, but I cant.
So now, im going to try.
goodnight ♥