Hi.
i'm never going to get anything done in computer class at the rate im going.
and then im going to fail computers and my goal for the end of the school year will be ruined.
how optimistic.
..
I feel like crap today.
I keep coughing and my throat kills.
oh and im tired.
today's going to be really slow.
[changechangechange.]
yesterday I decided I wanted to lose wieght so I could be happier about myself and that i'd look better tanning if I was thinner.
so, me and jesica decided we want to lose wieght for real this time.
we're going to walk home today, and as much as we can from now on.
or at least I think so.
and im walking with my mom. but it's not just about walking, it's also about eating right which my mom is cutting down on the snacks she gets me every weekend. which is good. I dont need that stuff anyways.
the only reason I eat is because i'm bored. if im walking or at a friends house or I have a friend over or something I wont need to eat things that arent healthy for me because ill be doing something better with my time.
I feel confident.
&change;
I was walking through the hallway and I seen Nigel. he stopped to smile at me.
=)
but I cant flip over little things like that anymore because it wont help me in the process of getting over him.
he still makes me smile, and makes my heart do that little flippy thing, but we need to work on that.
I was thinking this over, [ the whole deal with Mike and everything. ] and I came to the conclusion that im going to give myself sometime with Nigel, because other than him I dont really like anyone.
but if mike asked me to date him and I knew he was serious, i'd probably say yes because I could at least give it a shot and I can say that I at least tried. and this could be a good opportunity to help me get over Nigel.
dont take that the wrong way though, im not using him under any circumstances. I just need someone to care about and if they care about me then that's all the more better.
♥.
Since I havent done anything all period.
im going to do this.
1) When's your birthday?
november 5th.
2) Where do you live?
Broadalbin.
3) Have you visited all 50 states?
nope
4) Have you ever traveled abroad?
not really.
5) Do you like to travel?
yes.
6) Describe a funny/crazy/freaky experience you had while traveling.
probably when me and krissy tried walking to the locks with phil. it was crazy because we were all stoned and we walked waywayway out of the way. it was pretty fun.
7) What's your favorite animal?
llama.
8) Do you have a pet?
a cat & a dog.
9) Do you think hunting is wrong?
I guess not.
10) Describe a funny/crazy/freaky experience you had with animals.
a llama spit in my face once at the fair when I was little.
11) So what school do you go to?
BPHS.
12) Are you smart?
I can be.
13) What are your average grades?
eh, B's.
14) What class are you? (Class of 2002, Class of 2001, etc.)
2008
15) Do you like your school?
not really.
16) True or false: There are some things you just can't learn in school.
true.
17) Describe a funny/crazy/freaky experience you had at school.
i dont even know, my school is so lame.
I usually just wander the halls and things.
18) How often do you brush your teeth?
once a day.
19) What's your favorite flower?
daisys.
20) How about your favorite book?
the perks.
21) TV show?
wondershowzen.
22) Sport?
lax.
23) Homemade meal?
chicken. =)
24) About how long are you on the Internet per day?
a lot.
25) Do you get along with your family?
for the most part, yes.
26) Would you do anything just to get out of your house for one day?
of course.
27) Are there days when you'd rather be at school than at home?
not usually.
28) Are your parents divorced?
nope.
29) If so, for how long?
..
30) Is family life chaotic for you?
sometimes.
31) Would you rather bungee-jump or fight with your parents?
fight with my parents. lmfao.
32) Would you bungee-jump ever?
yes
33) Are you a risk-taker?
I guess.
34) Would you skydive?
yes
35) Scuba dive?
probably not.
36) Dive off the high dive?
nope.
37) Dive into a pool of Jell-O?
DUH! =)
38) Would you ever skinny dip?
maybe.
39) Streak?
lmfao, already have.
40) Go to a nudist beach?
probably!
41) If you answered "no" to number 40, why not?
ive always wanted to go to a nudist colony.
42) But I'm assuming that you would go to a "regular" beach, right?
yes.
43) How often do you go to the beach?
hardly ever.
44) Do you ever work out like crazy before you go to the beach in hope of getting a good body to show off at the beach?
nope.
45) Describe a funny/crazy/freaky experience you've had while at the beach.
ive never really been to the beach before.
46) Given the chance, would you live at the beach?
yes, i'd become a beach bum.
47) Have you ever surfed?
nope.
48) Have you ever body-surfed?
yes.
49) Have you ever been at the beach in the middle of a rainstorm?
nope.
50) Have you ever been stuck anywhere in the middle of a rainstorm?
yes.
51) Suppose it's sprinkling outside. Would you typically use an umbrella or wear a hat? Or neither?
neither, i walk in the rain all the time.
52) Studies show that your chances of being struck by lightning are tripled if you are holding an umbrella in the middle of a thunderstorm. Would you still use an umbrella anyway?
probably not.
53) Do you know anyone who's been struck by lightning?
nope.
54) Do you know anyone who has died? Were you close to this person? (or people)?
yes & yes.
55) Did you cry?
yes
56) Do you tell your loved ones "I love you" on a daily basis?
yes.
57) Have you ever loved someone so much it's made you cry?
yes.
58) Have you ever fallen in love with someone else?
yes?
59) Have you experienced "true love"?
not yet.
60) Do you believe in love at first sight?
no, lust.
61) True or false: There's somebody out there for everybody.
true.
62) Do you go through partners quickly?
I always have crushes.
63) What do you look for in a boyfriend/girlfriend?
playful, cute and fun.
64) Would you go out with someone who was drop-dead gorgeous but absolutely stupid?
it depends.
65) Do you go out with people just for their looks alone?
nope.
66) Do you undress people with your thoughts?
lol, yes. =)
67) Have you ever performed oral sex?
haha.
68) Have you ever had oral sex performed on you?
haha.
69) Do you like this number?
yes. =)
70) Do you like sex.
lmfao.
71) Do you think oral sex is sex?
nope.
72) What are your thoughts about teen pregnancy?
i would hate to be a teen mother.
73) True or false: Premarital sex is wrong.
false, in my opinion.
74) True or false: You should only have sex with someone when you're truly in love.
eh, true to some extent.
75) Given the chance, would you be willing to have a one-night stand with someone?
it depends on who it is.
76) Do you think you would get a thrill out of going to a club, having a one-night stand with someone, then wake up the next morning with a total hangover and not remember what you did last night, and to find that the person that was with you is nowhere to be seen, and you find $50 missing from your wallet?
actually, that's not exactly that attractive.
77) Do you plan on saving sex until you're married?
too late for that.
78) Are you planning on getting married?
yes.
79) At what age?
around 25, or so.
80) Do you want to have a big, spectacular wedding with everyone you know or a small, traditional, get-together-with-family-and-close-friends wedding?
a big spectacular wedding, with family & close friends.
81) Do you plan on having kids?
yes.
82) If you answered "yes" to number 81, how many are you planning to have?
2, at most.
83) Are you more interested in having a conformative, all-American, white-collared job, married, living in a suburban home, a dog, and 2.3 kids, or more interested in living a non-traditional, action-packed life?
the second choice, the first one is too dull and boring.
84) What's your favorite smell?
anything watermelon.
85) Movie?
ten things i hate about you.
86) Actor and actress?
johnny depp and i dont have a favorite actress.
87) Beverage?
Mountain Dew
88) Music type?
emo, screamo, indie, hardcore, reggaeton, rap. you know.
89) Musical artist?
Mae & Chiodos.
90) Would you ever want to be on "Survivor"?
naah.
91) How about "Who Wants to be a Millionaire"?
nope.
92) "The Weakest Link"?
nope.
93) Are you the weakest link?
probably.
94) Are you a TV fan?
yes, i love tv.
95) Are you an aspiring actor?
nope.
96) Are you a sports fan?
not really.
97) Are you an aspiring athlete?
not at all.
98) Would you want to live in a big city?
yes! =)
99) If you answered "yes" to number 98, which city(ies) would you like to live in?
manhatten, or nyc.
100) Are you a perfectionist?
nope.
101) It's the 101st question. Do you like the movie "101 Dalmations"?
yes.
102) Does anyone you know remind you of Cruella de Vil?
nope.
103) Are you afraid of failure?
not really.
104) How about rejection?
yes.
105) Michael Jordan didn't make one of his high school basketball teams. When Barbara Walters first started out in journalism, she was told that she would never make it in television. With these things in mind, are you still afraid of failure and rejection?
either way im still afraid of rejection.
106) Do you like anybody at the moment?
yes.
107) If so, who?
hm, I cant say .. yet.
108) Are you straight, gay, or bi?
straightt.
109) Do you go on dates often?
i've never been on a date.
110) Do you like to go on double dates?
I dont know.
111) Blind dates?
I dont know.
112) Describe a funny/crazy/freaky experience you've had while on a date.
I dont know.
113) If someone set you up on a blind date, and you were told you were perfect for each other. When you finally meet your date, he/she is not very attractive and smells bad. What would you do in such a situation?
i'd tell them I have to pee and never come back. =) i'm such a nice person.
114) Are you typically the dumper or the dumpee?
i wouldnt know.
115) How bad do you feel after you've broken up with someone (if you feel bad at all?)
i wouldnt know.
116) True or false: There are plenty of fish in the sea.
true.
117) Do you believe in fate, meaning that all of our lives are predetermined?
yes.
118) Do you think when we die, that's it?
nope.
119) Are you religious?
nope.
120) Are you a "holy roller"?
what's that?
121) True or false: 121 is a perfect square.
I dont know.
122) Do you go to church?
i've never been to church a day in my life.
123) If so, how often?
never.
124) When was the last time you went to church?
i've never been to church.
125) Do you think church is boring?
I wouldnt know.
126) Do you belive in God?
nope.
127) Heaven?
yes.
128) Hell?
yes.
129) Reincarnation?
eh, kind of.
130) What about aliens?
yes.
131) Do you think aliens really have abducted Earthlings?
doubt it.
132) Do you play any sports?
nope.
133) Do you work out?
nope, but I should.
134) If so, how often?
like, never.
135) Do you work out to maintain good health or try to maintain a good body, or both?
i just dont work out.
136) How fast can you run a mile?
i cant.
137) Do you drink a lot of bottled water?
yes.
138) Can you taste the difference between different kinds of water?
yes.
139) Do you play any musical instruments?
nope.
140) How about singing? Do you sing?
nope.
141) Do you write music?
nope.
142) How about lyrics?
nope.
143) What do you like to do when you're bored?
eat, listen to music, take pictures, go online. werrrrd.
144) Do you daydream?
yes.
145) Have you ever been embarrassed in a class because you were daydreaming? (i.e., the teacher calling your name and you don't respond)
yes, always.
146) Do you ever get in trouble in school for your behavior?
yes.
147) Do you get low marks because of your behavior?
kind of.
148) Are you a class clown?
not really.
149) Have you ever had detention?
mhm.
150) Been sent to the principal's office?
yes.
151) The last few questions are about people you know. Who's the most likely to become a highly-regarded lawyer?
no one I know.
152) An army general?
i dont know.
153) A professional singer?
i dont know.
154) A movie star?
me, im going to be a pornstar.
155) An award-winning author/poet?
i dont know.
156) A teen mother?
lmfao. i dont know.
157) And who will be the father?
me & mike. lmfao, inside joke. =)
158) A stand-up comedian?
i dont know.
159) A talk show host?
i dont know.
160) A fugitive on the run from the law?
hm, half of my friends. lmfao.
161) Describe yourself in three words.
sarcastic, fun, black.
162) Did you like taking this survey?
I guess.
163) Was it too long? not really.
164) Do you plan on sending this to anybody?
nope.
165) Describe the person that sent this to you in three words.
i dont know her. [ 4 words. ]