i'm right there if you get lonely .. <3

Feeling: torn
i'm dead tired. I was dosing off in math class. Nick called me like 6 times last night. ♥♥♥ .. i'm excited now. even though I was too much of a pussy to answer the phone. I didnt know what too talk about and I didnt want there to be a lot of awkward silence so i didnt answer. Oh, and Nick was drunk. I just think it'd be too wierd, and I think i'm personally a boring person. Oh, and I should also mention the fact that he wants to hook up today but I cant / dont want too because 1 .. my mom wont let me. 2 .. I have other plans 3 .. I cant possibly messure up to his other girlfriends he's had. 4 .. i'm bleh. I dont want too. i'm such a pussy. .. =( so I waited from about 10:45 until midnight for him to stop calling me, he finally did. my mom was mad when she woke up this morning because the answering machine picked up. He didnt leave a message though. my cousin told me I shouldve talked to him, but it'd be wierd so I didnt. I think I went over that though. I want to get out of school, I dont feel good. I cant breathe through my nose and I keep sneezing. it's bad. I think I should go, i'm accomplishing something but not really. i'm just kind of sitting here making it look like im doing something when i'm really not. Oh, and I hate being in computer class and sitting in the middle of two people that actually do their work and are probably passing unlike me. because then they look at what i'm doing and wonder why i'm typing incredibly fast for an assignment that doesnt need that much speed and then I become a failure. .. well, they've got trains and planes and cars i'd walk to you if I had no other way our friends would all make fun of us but we'll just laugh along because ; we know that none of them have felt this way _ _ _ _ _ , I can promise you that by the time that we get through the world will never ever be the same and you're to blame. ♥. ♥. ♥.
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i want that layout.
nick is gh3y.
so is nigel.
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