Hello you.
yesterday was a good day, one of the best.
=)
guess whose back?
Nigel's back.
He didnt go anywhere in the first place, im just saying that he's back in my life.
I let go of my feelings to see if they'd really come back. and they did.
He means more to me than I thought, and everyone knows it.
..
I seen him yesterday after lunch and he was walking with Lauren and he didnt say anything too me.
I actually got upset because she makes me irate, and he knows it.
I seen Lauren walking with a different guy and I wonder why Nigel wastes his time, I wouldnt leave him for another guy.
especially an uglyier one.
I went looking for him, because I felt like I had too.
and I found him. =) he put his arm out so we could walk, arm in arm.
it was almost like he was courting me.
I dont think anyone says that anymore, but it sounds really cute.
we looked really cute. ♥.
" whatsup beautiful " .. I miss him saying things like that, until I heard it and remembered what it was like.
he used to make my heart flutter that way.
..
AND
we had an actual conversation.
no one knows how much that honestly means too me.
because we never have conversation anymore, it's usually a one-sided deal.
me talking to .. well, air.
we stopped on the stairs, and he asked me for a kiss.
I kissed him without hesitation.
it was amazing. ♥.
we both missed that, and now I remember why.
I dont know if I want to wait for him.
even thought it's what i've been doing for a good while now.
it's better than that other boy.
I dont know, I still need more time to think.
..
Last night,
me and Jesica went galavanting around Amsterdam.
we walked from walmart to guy park, then from guy park to eckerds.
it's a pretty decent walk, i'm really tired too.
I seen Nick.
[ not the Nick I usually mention, this is another one. ]
everytime he sees me, he just looks at me.
he never says a word.
I wonder what's going through his mind when he looks at me.
..
hm, then we hung out with Seth for a while.
=) ohmygawd. I missed him.
it was really great seeing him again, QT like always.
pft.
I owe a lot of work in computers.
i'm never going to get it done.
I dont know why I bother.
and I say the same thing every day.
this is the only time I really update.
unless something happens after 3rd and i'll update it at home.
PEACE. ♥.
[pinkcandylips]