ugh its friday and im home ... stan ditched me ... i dno i havent cried in awhile but right now i just broke down nd cried ... ugh ... like why wont these fucking tears go away ... and i dont even kno why... i hate this... its funni how u can be so happy then be so sad ... im so upset and i dont get it ... no1 understands at all ...this sucks so much ... well i hope all my friends are happy cuz they all seeem to be and i dont want to bring them down ... im not gonna tell them how i feel im jus gonna hide everything ... heres a few things i wrote check them out... youl never know it cuz ill never show it... but im dieing inside cant you see im trying to hide? did u even notice i wasnt me? or are u trying on porpuse not to see im hurting and its pains me to death its giving me my one last breath i cant even explain how i feel cant u see the truth behind my eyes...cant u see whats real? cant u feel what i do cant u be the friend that helps me through can u help me get out of this life instead of twisting my heart with the same knife i told u once but wont anymore will i wake up ... sumthing greater then the past sumthing where pain isnt hidden from your eyes will i be awaken by ur voice tthe feeling of you still with me no feeling ever felt before the deep touch u bring 2 my heart... before it breaks... with nothing 2 coshin my heart fall... take the hidden path... were no1 can see me... jus waiting... for my last breath.... where i can finally say ... i made it .... So longingly waiting for the best day it will be my last day i wont wait for you forever ill go on without you ill make it... cuz i wont wait forever because your taking forever to change im not a patient person i cant be here hurtting forever ill make my days better better then the hidden ones Peace sammie---