i am right i swear im right i swear i knew it all along..... i want you to hold me ... ok i guess im looking for the same thing as gordon ... someone to be my best friend and like me and not just for play... but for more and i guess maybe as i get older ill find someone more mature... but i feel like im to mature for my age... maybe it has somthing to do with the fact that girls mature faster then boys do ... but come on!! ... i mean i think us girls in my school have wated long enough ... when are people goona grow up... maybe in my new school ... hopfully... then i can find a nice guy for gordon 2 :) ... and yea ... im totally over ... you kno who... well some people know nehow but i dno it gets me so anoyed somtimes... i dont know what i want and i cant seem to make up my mind... i kno i want a serious relationship... is there even such thing as that at the age of 13? ... i wish i culd skip 8th grade and go streight to high school ... i think im ready for it ... and ready to take a bigger step ... 8th grade is jus time to waste to get ready for high school but i really think im ready for it and im ready ta move of ta more mature guys!! ... ahh sorry i just need to let off alittle steam and then ill be fine ... but i dno ... this is just soo confusing ... why are guys soo confusing .... im looking for somone with ambition!! haha yea but i dno... i mean ok this summer needs more ... somthing is missing ... maybe its a boyfriend?? ... i dno but its somthing and i cant seem to figure out wat it is ... but im determined to find it ... this summer is going by soo fucking fast but ill find wat is missing even if it takes me until the last day of summer... ill find it ... no doubt about it ... am i looking for love?? peace sammie--- ps__xx Jamie --- im sorry you feel that way and thats not how i want you to feel i really do care about you ... and so do all your other friends... maybe its time to put ur selfishness away... i did....