this is where i say iv had enough and noone should ever feel the way that i feel now walking open wounds, a token display of brusies and i dont believe that im getting any better.... _dashboard confessionals_ wow i havent felt this shitty in the longest time... is this gonna happen all over again? because if it is i feel like im gunna kill myself... yesterday was the worst day ever... it hasent been that bad in so long i cant even remember... yea ok its my fault i start everything... i stupid fucking person i cant even explain it. Im so dumb and should have no friends yea thats right. If other people are gunna say it then why should'nt i, i mean i guess its true if other people think it about me... yea im fucking crazy i cause fights for fun ... everything is always me im always the bad one in everthing ahh what the fuck it wrong wit me... i mean i know i shouldnt care because people who treat me like this really arnt my friends at all... and its funny because i kno i feel like this now but if this is gunna continue i kno ill feel better later. I don't know when my life started getting so out of controll but it's getting to be to much for me. I need to learn to sort this out now before it gets me to the point where ill be going insane... witch to some people it seems like it already has and your right its almost there but thats why this has got to stop now. I need to figure out how to fix everything bad in my life... and alot of the stuff seems unfixable but im going to have to try anyway.