I kno things will never be the same... ok summer is almost here im happy but i kno it will never be like last summer... i feel like crying kinda like i did erlier before... so yesterday i was at jamies and i just feel blah... it was fun but i dno... and ok tonight was jens! fucking amazing but i dno i feel like ughhh i just dont feel good and i dnoo i wish i was like gone... i found out my friends were saying shit about me ... and ugh i wish they wuldnt judge me my other friend is being a bitch but o fucking well... things will never be the same and i dicided ... that u cant go back once someone hurts u its just blah and i wish i knew alot of things before last summer... if i could go back ... things wuld be diffent now... and ok as sum people kno it used 2 be very hard for me 2 be open with anyone nd i had a friend i culd talk 2 about stuff but not anymore... as i said... things are soo differnt now... and you cant go back ... so im trying just to move on ... Ughh i feel like shit... and only 1 person can make me feel this way... blah.. i wish i was dead right now mazeltov jen u did geat peace- sammie---