after have had this diary for awhile ... i finally got a chance to look at other peoples diarys ... and it has made me think ...for everyone i have been upset with,cried over,and been there for even if they havent been there for me ... its not worth it ... in my life iv had friends come and go ... and to some friends i have come and gone also ... but i never realli realized out of those people ... who has been there for me ... and its weird people i have never really talked to were feeling sorry for me! ... its weird ... for everyone who has ever cut themselves ... or done anything to hurt themselves ...this is for you... * i have probly felt every single feeling there is to be felt ... im only 13 but theres things not even my closest friends kno about me ... before last summer i could have never trusted anyone ... and as some know it was very hard for me to let my feelings out... to some people who cut themselves they are probly being hurt my a family member, friend or just school shit nd people ... but iv learned that you should let every little thing bother you or hurt you ... its not worth it you have to be stronger then the people hurting you becuase if not ... then your just giving up and thats not the right thing to do.So everytime you feel, left out with friends or feeling alone or have been hurt my people you thought loved and cared about you... remember...shitty things are gonna happen in life ... but its not a reason to end the good from happing.* any time somone feels any of the feelings in the world ... just comment me*... Its amazing how people can go so far as cutting themselves or commiting suiside ... trust me iv tried before ... now im letting my friends know ... only one knows that i have tried to actully kill myself besides cutting ... but now im trying to be stronger... these last few weeks i have been trying to forget about the people that have hurt me... if i can think back to my elemetrey school days i can remember being happy and now i am a teenager and there are so many feelings it feels liek i cant controll them all ... and i kno other people feel the same way, i have talked to all my friends before about things that have hurt them. I have tried my hardest to help them in anyway that i could. And i kno now i am staying stronge becuase all my friends who have helped me have given my strengh ... and also all the people who have hurt me before and the people i have written depressing poems about have given me the strengh to ignore it and not let it bother me ... because before ... it was killing me but now ... it wont get to me anymore ... heres things i would like to tell my friends becuase i dont always tell them how lucky i am to have them ... Lily... iv known you for 4 years now and we have been best friends, i kno ever since twin we havent been as close and im sorry for that but ur my life saver and your always there to listen to me when i have a problem and always set a good example ... thanks i love you GORDON... haha ok i kno we used to hate eachother but now we are best friends i love our eye contact thing because we always kno what eachother is thinking i love you with all my heart thanks for always being there for me and thanks for always knowing when somthing is bothering me and also for being a great example for me when im at the rock bottem you always bring me back up :) ASHLEE i kno we didnt realli get along that well before but now we are best friends your always there to help me nd talk to me and just remember im always there to! JEN i kno we have come to be the best friends and im so happy for that, we have gotten in a fight or 2 but not realli that much ... you always talk to me and make me feel better i love you so much! Sara... ur always there to make me laugh when im upset i love you nd thanks for helping me ill never get to tell u how much u mean 2 me :) 5th grade was the best year with you! KAT omg we have gotten in sOoOOoOo many fights but one thing we never to is let them ruin our frienship nd i think thats somthing that takes true friends. You know just about everything. ur someone i kno can relate to what i say,we think alot alike on problems. Thanks for helping me get over the fact that i couldnt be open with anyone You were my first friend out of every1 i have become friends wit this year and you were also the first person i could always be open with i love u so much SHERRY we became friends last summer nd im realli thankful for that. you have helped me in ways you probly havent realized. i love being able to talk to u thanks for being there for me JAMIE i love you so much thanks you a are great example and i kno are always there for me ... i love you more then u can imagine and you have helped me more then ever thank you so much .... ** so after writing all of this about my friends and everything ... iv come to see all the people that have loved and helped me in my life... and maybe they have hurt me in the past but ... friends fight ... thats one bad thing in life ... but its not somthing to make you give up on everyone who loves and helps you ** comment me