helLo mrs butterworth :) how are u feeling today? well alot of shit has been going on the last few days... and yes it all does suck... but fuck it... just forget everyone ... friends... some dont mean shit... some mean the world... and we shuld jus focus on the ones that mean the world... meaning they are always there for you and know just what to say to make u feel better :) ... they will be by your side 100% of the way nomatter what the situation... all the fake people... fuckem all... yesterday i was saying fuck you to all the people that were hurting my true friends... u deffiently feel much better once you get everything out... maybe not totally better... but its a start :).... fuck all the people who wanted to start with me... yea maybe i made a mistake by not thinking through the conciquences but no1 should be saying shit in the first place... friends anrt soppose 2 do that!! whats wrong with people... and no im not crazy!... im sorry for whatever it is wrong... but maybe this is a sign... knowing highschool is cumming soon and everyone is splitting up... its time we learn who our true friends are... g-d should help us find out before we totally give our hearts to friends... but yea enough about the bad stuff... just let it go and say... you kno what ... fuck it... fuck everyone whos not worth my tears pain or time... beacause remember the person worth your tears wont try and make you cry. all my TRUE friends i love u 1 death you know who you are ... im always here for all of you! and yes today was a better day... i slept more peacfully last night then the last few nights... still with things on my mind but this time i was actully able 2 put them a side and get more that a few hours of sleep. yea today was testing at school so we didnt get study hall so i have ALOT of hw grr this is the first time in a long time i have had alot of HW it kinda reminds me of 7th grade but yea ill deal with it as long as i dont have any fighting to deal with tonight it will be all good :)... b-days cumming up lauryn-october 5th sherry-october 6th i love u it will be fun! gordon- october 16th... but nuthing special lol that was a funni phone convo :)