im rewriting this entry... i feel like shit. I knew this was gonna happen cuz i cant stick to my ground i cant stick of to friends what the fuck is wrong with me i know what i really want but im to chicken to say it ... its 3 in the morning and i cant fall asleep thing fucking suckss i wanna diee right now ... i know it will get better but i never wanted this in the first place...i gave in ... i let myself down and now all there is to do is feel like shit... yea i know what my problem is ... but i dont have the guts to fix it please g-d i dont wanna cry anymore... i lost my best friend along time ago and i have 2 deal with it... this person isnt my best friend nemore.... GET OVER IT SAM! iiii fffeeeelll lllliiiikkkeee ssshhiiittt hheellpp meee