i promised myself that now that 7th grade is almost over that i would never go back. 7th grade was the worst/hardest/most depressing year in my whole life. And i kno its all because of this one person. This one person who is the only one who can make me feel this way. And i kno if this person makes me feel this upset then i shouldnt be friends with them... well its not that easy. I have tried over and over again to get this person out of my head to leave me alone. Its like this person owns me or is haunting me. I wish this would just stop and go away. Its weird tho how ... nomatter how mean this person is i still try my hardest to talk to them or make them feel better or watever. And it hurts me that i try and try but always seem to fail.... maybe im just a failur. I kno that since this person doenst seem to care than i shouldnt either... i try my hardest not 2 care but it doesnt seem 2 work...so... Im asking g-d and im saying a prayer to please let me through and to let this person be only a memory, or more like a nightmare. i want to not care just like the person who doesnt care about me, this is my last chance, im asking you to let me feel better i wish i never met this person. They only brought me pain. i kno if i could just go back ... things would be alot differnt now... and i wuldnt feel this pain and hurt. I kno this person was the reason for all the tears and all the hours i have spent crying. This fucking bitch who just made me insane. There soo mnuch anger i can say and thats why i write it in here... if i could just go back i would change the day i met this person. The hardest part about this is that i cant tell this person how i feel and i wish i could... You ruined what was soppose to be the best year. I wish i never met you, i wish you didnt kno me. I pray that i never talk to you and that i can get over this. you hurt me soooo much and made me cry so much i hope your happy. i will NEVER EVER FORGIVE YOU! and if i ever did i would kill myself. because for everything youv done to me you dont deserve it. So im asking you nicely PLEASE i BEG you just leave me alone. Dont hurt me anymore. youv made your mark that will stay in my heart to make me never forget you. so please dont kill me and just leave me alone. PLEASE dont make me cry anymore. i wuld say that to this person if i could... i have tried before to tell how i feel but its just no use things never change and now i dont expect then 2. People always say things will change in high school and no1 will care because there are 2 many people 2 care... well i am gonna know almost every1 at stevenson. well i kno i am going to a differnt school next year so i wont have 2 see this person ... but i dont even kno if i can last the last 3 days of school. but i do kno that as soon as its over i dont want to see u ever again. Thankyou for DW. thankyou for ruining my life... and even tho my life was hell i still wish you the best because i can never be mean to anyone like that. Iv pictured 7th grade would be a hard year... but never this hard, but thanks to you... i have had 2 survived through wat no 7th grader should go through. all the... lies tears hurtfulness crying sadness depression drinking smoking cutting yelling.... THANKYOU FOR THAT but i have 2 say there was one good thing about this year... *understanding* but i guess that just wasnt enough... your the angel of my nightmare.... now if you could see wats in my eyes id find a way to make it better if u held me on this night id find away 2 make this better if you even saw the fight i tried my hardest to make it work but now ill say goodbye tonight so hold me one last time because now im crying and these tears arent making sence and your voice i see is fadeing and the lies u told are wasted on me you actully made me cry again this time... i actully cant forgive you the more u hurt me the more i try 2 care the more i see u happy the more i get depressed the more i hear your voice the weaker i get but wats funni is... the more i hate you the more i dont want to I dont wanna think about you or think about me dont wanna figure this out i dont wanna think about you or think about nothing dont wanna talk this one out this time i wont let you bring me down i wont let you shut me out cuz theres one thing i kno i dont wanna think about you when i wake up here tomarrow things will never be the same cuz i wont wait cuz you wont change and youl awlways be this way now im trying 2 get through today and there one thing i kno i dont wanna think about you.