ugh. another booooring day. ouch my fingers hurt from the guitar... i need to take a break from playing it but i dont want to hehe. im pretty good at that FZ song, almost have it perfected, just have to learn to not move my friggen hand so much! i end up hitting the other strings and screwing the whole thing up.. cause ever since i read that book with the tabs i use the up and down motion.. not just down all the time. it goes much faster with it hehe. well.. im dressed, for once. dad and i were gunna go to high river to visit Gram (my grandma) cause she just got out of the hospital cause she has cancer.. dont worry she'll be ok. you know what I hate? i hate it when your parents dont tell you things. like, they almost didnt tell me that she had cancer. and with my cat Pepper, they told me one night that he was sick.. and the next day *gasp* he dies. yea, THANKS. coulda told me earlier. i need new bras. these ones are way too small... maybe ill get some when i go to the mall on the weekend to get those pants i want.i also need an mp3 player or a way smaller discman, mines too big. hehe i need music all the time or else i just break out in song and start singing lol. and i am not a good singer so a new one would be handy :P. ive noticed from looking at other people's diaries that they write poems to express their feelings (sometimes). hehe wish i could do that, but im not very good with words heh. ive lost my creative touch to writing. same with drawing, i cant just doodle anymore, i have to have something to draw... but when i have something, i do it well, you should see the guitar i drew. wow. its a PRS custom 24 electric.. one of the guitars Ler uses hehe. i would like one for myself but i have my eye set on the PRS SE EG.. 22 fret.. hehe good enough for me. anyway, i cant draw or write anymore! geez. but i can play. hahaha. yea the way i play my music shows my emotions etc.. like if im mad i'll do it really slow, if im excited it will be nice and clean, if im bored and thoughtful (like today when i played) it will be sloppy lol. i wish i had a digital camera, i like taking pictures and my webcam is gay. anyway, I want to go to SF. yes, SF is the key! but ya know.. dad came and asked me if i could pass for 21, stupid USA and their drinking age of 21, i have to be 21 to get into the club where primus plays :P maybe i could find some people to get me in.. or pay the bouncer.. rofl. geez. maybe i could sneak in the back.. omg wtf am i thinking lol. i need a job ack