yea.. Got in a ginormous fight with my mom this morning. Fun stuff. Then she gave in and said sorry.. she made me say sorry too.. My dad yelled at me too. I think I'm just going to go on being a lonely person, and not do anything, because it's just uber boring and there's nothing to do and stuff.. might just get a job when I can find one, just for something to do. So I can get money and buy more guitar stuff and Primus stuff.... residents cds.. just yea I need money. Mid-terms all week... well until thursday anyway. I think I'll do pretty good, I know my stuff, I made my cheat sheet for science.. Math tomorrow. Then Social, science, ELA. I honestly don't know how I feel. Wait no that's wrong, I do, but I don't want to say it because it's wrong and..yep. I am just very angry with my life right now, it's extremely boring to the point where I wish I could sleep forever. But I am also very lonely for some reason and feel that there's no one that can cure me of whatever I have. I think I am very prophetic (if that's a word). You ask me anything with a straight face in real life and I'm sure I could tell you a reasonable answer. I don't mean to sound like I have a huge ego or anything... but I think...yea it's just hard to explain. I wish people would smarten up and learn to recognize the problems of their local network of relationships. I wish they would see that there's other things out there and they should atleast try to make an effort to accomplish something. I wish that my parents would let me do it when I want to. My dad asks me if I've taken my vitamins and i say no, then he comes upstairs a while later and yells at me. LET ME DO IT ON MY OWN TIME, WHEN I FEEL LIKE IT. YOU DONT DO THINGS RIGHT AWAY WHEN I ASK YOU! SO WHY SHOULD I? I always do my homework on sundays right so I wake up and mom says "you know you have homework right" and I say i know.. OKAY HOW COULDNT I KNOW I WAS THE ONE WHO WAS THERE TO GET IT. And then a while later she reminds me that I have to do my homework. OKAY MOM I KNOW LET ME DO IT WHEN IM NOT FREAKING TIRED ANYMORE AND IM NOT SOME FUCKING SLACKER THAT DOESNT DO THEIR HOMEWORK. I TRY TO ACHEIVE THINGS, I REALLY DO. I DONT TRY AND BE PERFECT BUT I TRY AS HARD AS I CAN TO MAKE MY LIFE LIVABLE. MY LIFE RIGHT NOW IS LIVABLE, BUT ONLY IN SCHOOL. I JUST FEEL LIKE I WANT TO DIE WHEN IM NOT AT SCHOOL OKAY. one day im just gonna turn cold and NOT DO ANYTHING. and i wont know why. and i cant do anything about it. today i have so many things to say to everyone, and I dont feel love for ANYTHING. Today I want to kill everyone and tell everyone to get the fuck out of my life cause they arent making it any better.