As I sit here watching you I reflect on everything and think about what I am not doing and how I feel. And I cry I want to flee, I want to leave, but even though it’s hurting me I am enraptured. These poems that flow from my tears are reminders of how I feel inside, How things have gotten worse and That thing they call life is diminishing. I feel bad for these lyrics that flow, they are not doing any good, unless of course you like bad vibes, ‘tis time I take my leave to the dark areas of my mind. I think I shall stay a little bit longer but fight the urge to stare, and look into the light and go to those joyous things in my life, the few. You may still talk but say nothing that brings doubt to my mind for then the lights will go out. ----------- Take me seriously I wasnt just making these up for the joy of it. I was crying when I said these. But no. Obviously it isnt that big of a Deal. I can find someone else, dont worry. One day I will and I will be happy and stuff. Yea sure I laugh all the time and joke and shit but do you think that's how I am ALL the time?? I am only like that when I am around people because I know people enjoy someone who makes them laugh and not someone who makes them sad.. if they care. None of you have seen me the way I am. I dont want you to. today I feel alone and I wish ler was here.. again