Okay I'm just gunna rant about stuff. Okay I feel all .. left behind in life, you know? I mean, out of my best friends (one side of them anyway) I am the least experienced in anything. It's so lame. I wonder why? It's... part because I refuse to and part because I am not there when stuff happens. And for some other stuff? I have no idea why! I don't even consider myself ever having been in a real relationship, but by the "teenage dating standards" I have been in a few. But I really don't think I have. As for fun, I never have fun. Ever. Lately, you ask me if I had fun, wherever I was, I say yes. Truth? No. I'm soo fucking sick of all this. I NEED SOMETHING FUN. It's all so repetitive and BORING. Okay here, you want the truth about how I feel about things? Going to the mall is BORING unless you are SHOPPING. Going downtown is BORING and LAME because.. what's the point? Wow, we're downtown, we're big kids now! Hanging out outside, is okay in the summer. Winter, what's the point? Being on the computer, POINTLESS. I need to spend less time on it. I don't even tell anyone anything anymore! I bet I could ask you questions about me, and you wouldn't be able to answer them .. I have NEVER been to an ACTUAL party, but then I'm not sure I want to go to one. But try everything once, right? So maybe. I really do not feel like drinking till I puke, getting fucked up on drugs, or having promiscuous sex right now. But you know, recreational drug use and drinking is okay... in moderation. And, I could use a bit of sexual activity haha. Let's just say life is starving me.