Listening to: lonely
Feeling: numb
this song reminds me of stan. he dedicated a part to me...n wen ever i hear this song, i just wanna cry :(. i cried on the fone with him last nite, and the nite b4...he ended up crying too...*sigh* i miss that kid so much its scary. y do i gotta live in wisconsin? y cant i live in new mexico? y cant he live here? y am i only 16? y do i have to stay in skool until im 18-19? i wanna be outta skool so i can go down by him wenever i want. we've gotten realli close over the past week or so n its great. hes making up excuses to his gurl****** just to talk to me. thats nice..but he still says i love you to her, only because she waits for him to say it. i hate her so much. i just about puked wen i heard him say that to her last nite...he just doesnt understand how bad i wish i was her rite now... :(
ne wayz...its now 8 40. i went to andreas a lil after 5, but she was on the fone with UM UM. lol. so i played solitaire n brick attack on my fone :D lol. n now, shes watching the OC. n im not even gonna say shit about that show, cuz ill get slapped or sumthin by sum1 in this house or by andrea lol. so0o ya...me n stan had a talk...that was a nice lil convo...n ima keep all them surprises to MYSELF!! HAHA. lol. but ya, i was happy. then i made myself a pot pie, n wen it was done, i was so hungry that i just took a bite...n i burned my tongue :| jeeze that was dumb. o well, it was so good. soo ya, i think thats it for 2day.
cj