i feel alive lol. dont i always feel alive? well i would hope so. well, jessica got put onto another pill. but it sux, cuz it makes her sleep 24-7 just like her old ones. n thats y we got her off of them in the 1st fuckin place u fuckin idiots. n now shes BACK on ones that do that. n she still has to take her other pills...even tho they make her suicidal. WTF?! jeeze, ppl are so fuckin dumb. n who knows wen theyre gonna take her off of them. n now she got kicked out of her day treatment/program thing cuz she missed it 2day. well wtf? she missed it cuz she was so out of it from them damn pills. it aint her fault...is ur fault for putting her on them!! FUCKIN DUMBASSES omg. so now we gotta figure sumthin else out to get her help...ughhh. ne wayz...i think im going to carlys 2morrow:D shes going crib shopping with corys grandma...n then i get to come over hopefully. her mom is going out or sumthin, iono, at like 4. so i get to help babysit:D yay. i luv that baby. shes so cute. so ya..ima go now