aight...heres the 2 poems that the ppl wanna publish: **My love for you can’t be expressed in words. I feel like I’m free when we’re together, free to do whatever, just like the birds. I want this feeling to last forever. When I’m with you, I can show my true side. There’s no limits, nothing to hold me back. When I laid eyes on you, I could have died. Because of you, I got my life on track. You are the reason that I am alive, the reason I am who I am today. Through the tough times, you helped me to survive. Us to stay together is what I pray. I am hoping that we stay together, because I am loving you forever. ------------------------------- **Friends are doing drugs, friends are cutting themselves, including my younger sister. They say to hell with hugs, and continue to do drugs. Why they do it, I have no clue. They say its like an adrenaline rush, and feels good to watch the blood gush. But they don’t know something can go wrong, and could die. They obviously don’t care, which makes me cry. I’ve lost a lot of my close friends, due to their new “gothic click”, my sister thinks she’s not skinny enough, so she starves herself, and gets sick. I really miss the old jessica and friends, the way they used to be. We would joke around, and love the smell of herbal tea. I used to fight all the time with my sister, but now, the truth is, I really miss her. Right now no one knows all the hell im going through. I just want this phase to stop, stop, stop, before I go crazy too. --------------------------------- heres sum more of my poems.. **Life is hard, life is tough, and my god, I hate it when its rough. My life is so messed up right now. It feels like im in a hell bubble, and I just wanna make it go pow. So much stuff goes on everyday, and plenty more that no one knows. I don’t know where to start and what to say. Im tying so hard to keep to myself, and not let it show. But there’s certain days that I just have to let it all out. I then go to my room, blast my music, lay on my bed, and begin to scream, cry, and pout. Or that other time when I wanted to just run someplace and hide. I sat there for hours just thinking as I cried. People say im crazy and think I cry for stupid reasons but they don’t know what’s been going on in my life for the past two seasons. So I end up holding my emotions in, but sooner or later it shows. People start to realize it, and soon, just about everyone knows. -------------------------- **I try to tell myself they’re not real, its my imagination going off track. They know my every move, and every feel. They just sit there, waiting to attack. But its not that easy to do such a thing. They out number me and work as a team. I try to block it out, maybe hum or sing, but they’re stronger than me and love to hear me scream. They taunt me and scare the shit outta me, and never leave me alone. I cant even be alone when I wanna pee. Although, they don’t bother me when im on the phone. They were sent by Lynn, but fuck him, he shouldn’t be alive. They love it when ever you sin. Feeding from my fear, is how they survive. -------------------------------- **The day came when you received the call saying she died. I tried my hardest and gave it my all to wipe the tears you cried. You gotta keep going, even when the road gets rough. Just keep your head up, I know you can fo it, you’re tough enough. Remember all the memories you two shared together. never ever forget them, and be sure to cherish them forever. Keep a place for her deep down in your heart, it doesn’t matter that you two are apart. She’ll be by your side when you go for a walk, and she’ll always be there for you whenever you need to talk. You’ll soon once again be joined together, don’t worry, you two aren’t apart forever. ------------------------------- **An angel was with her I cant explain how I felt that day. All I know is that, that bitch is gonna pay. I don’t feel anything but pain, it feels like im about to go insane. She tried killing her on the night of Tuesday. I heard what happened, and didn’t know what to say, except that I wanted her dead, shoot her in the fuckin head. I almost lost my sister cuz of fuckin kati. For 2 weeks, shes been acting all shady. Now I know why, and if I see her, ima put on a show. Ima kill her and leave her bleeding in the snow. Cuz of kati’s fuckin “master mind”, jessica went to a place, a place no one could find. There, she slashed her wrist up, around 4:07. She passed out, left to die, awaiting heaven. But an angel was with her, watching her. A couple came and found jessica, and the angel said “ty, sir”. The old man told his wife to call 911. He picked her up to safety, in a slow run that one isnt done yet..but thats all i have so far. n thats all ima post for now...if u wanna see the rest, just comment n lemme kno...